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zenditz -> RE: PERFECT Dom (4/7/2006 5:03:53 PM)
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i like don't know about like a PerfectDom, for like all submissives, or like whatever... i know what basic qualities my DreamDom has though. And like please if i'm like being irrational in any of these dreams and hopes, please will someone like let me know... like really.
i like won't be one of the one's jumping all over you IrishMist,
Although thats like not my DreamDom... thats kinda a part of it. As long as He's like showing that side within like play. If i ever truly like felt that my pain was being done without like my ability to like get out if i needed to then that would definantly not like fit into my DreamDom like type. i do like pain for pain's sake... but not if it comes with anger. Anger scares me and hurts me.
My DreamDom is one who knows that although He truly does own me, and i belong to Him. He like see's that i chose to give myself to Him, and like cherishes me because of that. Like i have to feel emotions towards Him, and that like they are returned. My DreamDom also makes me feel protected, in and out of play. i am vunerable, i won't lie. i'm like so totally no longer the victim i like once was, but i am vunerable and my DreamDom makes me feel safe, justing knowing i'm his.
Like also very important to me is that like punishment, or like whatever you want to call it, that it is like within some realm of well i guess play (here's where like i get jumped all over). i've been through like tons in my life and like won't deny my history of abuse, long before getting into BDSM... so for punishment... well i enjoy it, and need it toward being like the submissive i want to become, and He wants me to be. But like not like the person He wants me to be. i like need to feel free, respected, and loved not only for my submission to my DreamDom, but also my indivuality, you know like who i am as a person.
Then like of course my DreamDom is like able to like truly love me, as much as i do him... and express it. and like not just when W/we're playing, but just like laying in bed, watching T.V., or out and like about. Like my DreamDom would be as blissfully happy in having me, as i feel being his.
These are like some of like the big things that like come into my heart when like i imagine my DreamDom. He's like so totally not like a Sadist, or Master... but like Dominate, and not because i'm afraid of Him, but because i love him, need Him, and feel He desires me. Lastly like my DreamDom helps me like become like His best submissive, not His slave, or some cookie cut out of like what submissives are supposed to be. But that He is helping me become like my complete self, free to express myself in like all my aspects, based on like what W/we need from each other. That i like need to feel i'm truly making Him happy... and that He is happy with having me as his own.
That I guess is like my most important part of my DreamDom. That i am making him happy, and that he is truly happy with me... happy with owning me... you know like as extatic as i feel by being truly His submissive.
i know i like kinda babbled on, but it's kinda hard to like say it all in one posting. i feel i did like pretty good though. i like wish us all nothing but happiness in finding our DreamDom's. my heart tells me somewhere out there is mine... i like don't know why, but i can feel it.
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