barelynangel -> RE: lied to my Master... (5/1/2010 8:47:01 AM)
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While i don't get this posting to tell everything what you did thing. To me, the fact that you felt your writing those lines were TO MAKE HIM HAPPY and you were only humoring him by doing so, and that you "lied to make him happy" that you were humoring him in doing as he asks, tells me you really don't get anything especially regarding the dynamic you two say you have and that i think you are lying about why you did it in order to manipulate him. I doubt it was about the time it took at all or you were worried about other things that needed to get done -- i think you simply didn't want to do it which is why you didn't say anything to him but instead you wanted to do what you wanted to do which was not finish the task -- so you found a way to get out of doing it and then when you got caught, it was i i i was only trying to make you happy Master -- snif. I think after 3 years (which i doubt this is the first time you felt this way and did things with the mindset you were humoring him instead of getting what he actually wanted) he doesn't see this in you -- he isn't paying attention very well or he simply doesn't care. And if he thinks your posting this is teaching you a lesson -- i don't think that is true either its just another concept of "writing lines" where you are humoring him - because i really don't think your lying had anything to do with pleasing him but with doing what you want and pretending its all about him. I lied occassionally to my Master, i tried to manipulate him other times, but i never passed it off as i was doing so to please him -- i was at least honest about why i did lie at the time when i got caught and i was honest to myself about WHY i was lying in the first place. I would say slaves lie occassionally to their Masters but when they do, i would say its because they want to do what they want to do. This isn't advocating lying -- but to me, if you can't be honest at least to yourself about why you are lying and continue lying when you get caught doing something wrong about why you did it -- how do you actually know when you are being honest? Ahh riddles. angel
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