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Mylady1201 -> Hello out there. Is it okay if i share my thoughts with you? I lost my lover, my best friend and it (5/4/2010 4:55:50 AM)
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Hello out there. Is it okay if i share my thoughts with you?
I lost my lover, my best friend and it was my fault. In the past 3 weeks Ive done nothing but reflective thinking, talking to other subs that ive known from another life when i lived in the midwest. Trying to find out where i went wrong.
With the internet and all that is has to offer I thought what the hell maybe just maybe ill give it a try. I do not know if this is the place that i need to be, but. I am placing this profile on every site there is out there and believe me when i say there are plenty. Not knowing if he is into this anymore, we havent practiced this life style together for a couple of years. I will not look for him. Its not my place too.
When i load the page to entire the site. It does pulls up profiles from all over VA. So if you come across mine stating "i was viewing you" Please understand Im here to sit and stay silent not to participate with anyone, Only 1 caught my eyes once open a time.
It was an epiphany going off in my head with my counselor. I totally screwed up. I lost my master, my best friend, my lover, my mentor, my dominant Man. Due to my pride and my not remembering my place in this world, in his world. I was to be , his Princess, his Sunshine. his wife, his personal pet. His biggest supporter of ALL of his endevors,
I recently not realizing it without his permission, became dom female in his world, Which is not what he wanted or required from me. He is his own boss. He needs to be able to come and go and express his needs without judgement, without shame, without lables, without accusations. Be able to show who he is on a private stand point without worrying of any backlash personally or professionally. Be able to come home after a bike ride and know that I will be there for him regardless of where he was or what he was doing.
if you do not recognize my eyes, then i request that you respect my Dom's collar and move on. Some place wedding bands on their left finger to show who owns them. I now wear his ring on a chain; he gave me around my neck to show who i still want to own me.
If Im allowed; I will do whatever that is allowed of me to do, To be honored back into his world, his trust, his heart.
I only show my eyes out of respect for HIS privacy as to who i am.
I placed Newport News due to the fact when we resided there we were happy. We purchased a home in an another area of Va.
But for the last 6 months my Dom has been sad.. partly due to me and my insecurities AND all the wrong things that a sub can do to sabotage her marriage. As well as his own inner demons he has said to me. :(
This profile is also being placed on the other 3 top sites
mydungeonplace.com
bondage.com
The 3rd site will not post on here. Not sure as to why. Its starts with an F and ends with life.
either under this name or papassunshine
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