MHOO314
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Nostalgia, hmmm a hard thing to grasp at times, for if I long for something in the past, then its in the time before I had My child--and the time with her has been the most special in My life-- I miss home--we were going to move back to New Orleans soon, the area we once lived is ok, but I now fear that the path for hurricanes through there has been discovered by Mother Nature and won't quit anytime soon. New Orleans is the only place I feel 100% whole-- I miss My mom--the good times, but the last years were a struggle with severe depression, bipolarism, low self esteem, I don't miss the drama and have finally come to terms with that and am at peace again. I miss My Dad, gone far too young and never having pleased My mom--I think. But if any of those dominoes would have fallen differently, I would not be here, I would not have the most marvelous teen ever, I would not have met the boy--at 54 I would not be learning to ride a horse-- Nostalgia: I miss the smell of spices in the City when you drive in, I miss porch sitting, we have been here 6 years and I've seen My closest neighbors that much ( and we are out all the time!), I miss the time to take college courses, I miss the time to read with a clear mind--I miss the smile on My mom's face in the spring on the first real gardening day, I miss the feel I had when she smiled and for a few moments I knew she was happy. Random Thoughts: I wonder what the future holds, some things at present seem to be in flux, I wonder what My Circle will look like, I wonder how mean people sleep at night and I wonder how many more threads we are going to have about rude emails, bad Dommes and wankers, I wonder if fastlane will ever show the side behind the wall, I wonder if R1 will find his Dom-may <smiles>-I wonder if I will be able to over come the mountain I see ahead of Me--I wonder if I will get to Australia to give IronBear and his family the hugs they have given Me, I wonder if I should get another cup of coffee-- I think I will.
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SLUTS: Southern Ladies Under Tremendous Stress... Mistress Hathor
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