Termyn8or
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Kumbaya ? please no. We would all puke ! LOL. While I hate to lose the piano, the official story is she got it because when he got my car towed she got it out on her CC, and it was about $200. I paid $500 for it a few years ago, and if asshole would not have taken the attitude that it was not his fault, I would have never removed it. Fucking Christ, it seems like I am raising children here. That's wrong, because I thought of the condition of the world and I conciously decided not to have children, I don't fucking deserve this. And I like kids, I really do. Kids like me too, and everything is fine there, but I actually decided not to make any. Trojans were my friend, as well as Women with their tubes tied. I didn't want to inject a kid into the life as it was on this planet, and seeing how it has become, I am not sorry. But the thing is I gave up a hell of alot of self fulfillment, all the joys and whatever that comes with that awesome responsibility, for my freedom therefrom. I DO NOT DESERVE TO HAVE TO DO THIS. That is really the only problem I have with it. Why the fuck do I have to be a Parent to people who are only a scant few years, or even months younger than I ? This is not fair ! ! ! ! . OK that was my tantrum. I mean really, I may have really made a mistake here, because after what I have seen in the world I think I could breed a real leader. Without all my shortcomings, and with all my strengths, selected of course, and selected as well from his Mother. Home schooled up to maybe eigth grade. Taught about real things, exposed to some of my merry band, knowing how to SAIL a boat, fish and hunt, use firearms and tools, how to control temper. The kid could be set for life befoee he ever left the nest. But I either do it or I don't. I would above all need TIME. This is something no Man can create. We only get so much, and juggling all this I would still have to make a living for the family. I don't take these things lightly. But I decided no, I am not doing that. Therefore I am denied what I have seen, which is pride and pleasure when you see your own do good, get ahead, all that. The love and whatever else. My life is devoid of those good aspects. So goddammit, I shouldn't have the bad aspects of it either. If it gets too bad I'll have to start throwing people out. I can get anyone outta here in twenty minutes, but asshole doesn't believe it. I hope for his sake that he doesn't make me prove it, and it is all nice and legal. You think I am full of shit ? You think tht because he has a piece of mail here with his name on it he can fuck me around for months ? WRONG !. "Officer, he is calm now, but I am deathly afraid of him. We used to work out together decdes ago, I gave him a place to stay and I can tell it is about time for a fight. He has remained healthy while I have not and I can't sleep with him here. He is a master of several different forms of martial arts and has maybe ten times my strength and is twice my size". Up comes a trip to jail for him and down to court for me to get a TRO. Heads I win and tails you lose. I am at least twice as smart as all these MFs put together. Nobody with a fucking brain goes against me in my house. You want to see ruthless, I'll show you ruthless if you want to stop by and fuck with me. But if you don't come here I can't see an issue. These are people I am supporting right now. And that means I have witnesses who will say what the fuck I tell them to say. Now where do we stand ? You see, I don't play to fucking lose. Losing is not an option, that is how I was taught and that is how it will be. I don't care if I have to get the gun out, if I lose, my opponent will lose more, guaranteed, and I hope eveyone knows that. In the early days taming the Racoon, he stung me for sixty bucks, for a carton of Newports. I found out, not through the CC statement, but from the store. He paid back the money and I flat out told him that this was not over. More recently he did something that impressed me as being indicative that he wants the straight life, well somewhat. That he was now worthy. And by no impellation of mine or anyone else's. Abiout a week ago I told him it was over. He could not remember at first to what I was referring, but he caught it pretty quick. And this other dude with the attitude, I told him during our argument that hew says the same thing about everyone he knows and they say the same things about him. He has not responded to that and I doubt he can muster a decent response anyway. The choices are I win or they lose. My name was not borne purely because of mt past physical feats, proofs of manual strength. It is my mind that makes me the Terminator. T
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