Aneirin
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Joined: 3/18/2006 From: Tamaris Status: offline
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Some might say leave alone the little boxes and labels as one might not like what they end up with just be yourself that is good enough, but sometimes being oneself can be a problem to the self and to others, so searching through the so called disorders is sometimes necessary even if it is purely for the purpose of understanding ones own actions, for in that sense diagnosi can be liberating. You could if you wish try the online psychometric testing, those tests that can be found on various disorder websites, but they are not a reliable method of arriving at a diagnosis, but at least they give signposts to the participant as to where to go next. One of these tests that was pointed out to myself years ago also it had in the advice that more than a certain percentage of certain answers given, print out the test with it's results and take it to a physician. The physician seeing a person in receipt of such a test result understands the complainant is seeking more than the usual brush off of depression or anxiety, two things I was perpetualy told for years when I went in search of a reason. What the physicians were not quite understanding was that anxiety and depression might be symptoms of something else, they would treat the symptoms with pills and stuff but as to the cause, nothing, I needed to know the cause as once a cause is recognised and understood, changes can be made, just like repairing a machine, and I also was a repairman able to repair just about anything that came my way broken. I am not a repairman anymore, I left that to pursue a life long dream, academic study to be like everyone else, a person who possesses a degree in higher education and with hope a new path in life where I am the boss, not another who pays peanuts and keeps me in a poor standard of living, my history, as by all accounts knowing what I now know, I have under achieved all my life through believing I was in a word stupid, I just didn't get it. ( But regarding the fun of repairing, just now and again I rescue discarded machines from dumps and fix them, my friends have all got useful Numatic Henry hoovers this way, for I repair and give the thing away to those that need it.) For me it was my university that spotted some familiarities and sent me to an educational psychologist who tested and diagnosed Aspergers syndrome and with that the report from the testing that I was in the top three percent in the country for intelligence and reasoning ability. At the time I was totally confused but at the same time elated that the difficulties I had had all through my life are typical of asperger's syndrome, but I mask it well, the things I have learned through life to cover up my inabilities, but it takes an expert in the field to notice and it was noticed. The diagnosis offered by the psychologist was later confirmed by a psychiatrist. As to college studies, well prior to, I was for quitting every week, a familiar route to me with academic study, for I had been there before on that one, but now there is a reason I receive additional support from various specialist tutors, helping me to understand the basics that everyone else seems to breeze through. I have in my new knowledge discovered I have certain behaviours which are not good, for I know they were behaviours I constructed years ago to fit in, but now it appears I am stuck with them as try as I might, I cannot rid them they are that well ingrained, so my next plan is to seek cognitive behavioural therapy to try and undo these things as I see them as a hindrance to my future plans. So all in all, being given a label, a little box to reside in has helped me immensely, helped me to understand myself and how I fit into society at large. I am not mad, nor stupid, I just think differently and that is that, but I do possess certain talents which are of use to society and I aim to train myself to use those talents for the betterment of myself and others. As a result, I suffer less anxiety these days and I am on the whole happier, and happy because I see the world as a bright new thing that needs to be explored, for I feel I have been given a second chance.
< Message edited by Aneirin -- 6/27/2010 8:03:05 AM >
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Everything we are is the result of what we have thought, the mind is everything, what we think, we become - Guatama Buddha Conservatism is distrust of people tempered by fear - William Gladstone
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