MaamJay -> RE: Do you love your mistress/master ? (11/29/2007 7:12:48 AM)
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i both love Master and am in love with Him. i've been married twice ... but when my life flashes before me when it's time to go, this will stand out as THE love of my life. i obey because that's what i want to do, it's what i committed to doing, it's what pleases Him therefore it's what makes U/us BOTH happy. Note though, i WANT to obey ... doesn't necessarily mean that i WANT to do everything i am asked to do! In fact, i get a perverse pleasure when He asks me to do something i don't really want to do ... because then my obedience is "challenged" and i am happy to follow through on my promise and obey! It doesn't always have to be the big things that people tend to think of either ... it can be in very little things like when i've just sat down and He notices that one of the remote controls is out of reach, or the curtains need to be drawn or whatever ... what i WANT is to stay seated on my arse LOL ... but what i DO is to say "Yes Master" and get up and fetch/do whatever it is. He is such a sweetheart though, sometimes He'll get up and do it Himself ... and while part of me is grateful, the other part feels robbed LOL! The only "fear" in me is the fear of seeing deep disappointment and hurt in His eyes ... because i know how incredibly sharply that will pierce me too. Not because i think He will lose control, punish me physically (that's NOT His way), or that He will leave ... purely because i can't bear to hurt Him by disappointing Him. It's why, on the occasions when i have got out of hand, i am genuinely very remorseful, and there is always a long discussion and lots of cuddles to follow. As to spankings ... well, for U/us they are play, they are fun, they are reward! O/our repartee when i am being just a tad cheeky (within acceptable bounds) is to say "Oh Master, i am so naughty, spank me!" to which He replies "Oh no, I can't do that, you'd enjoy it way too much!" He's right too! However, it's not always easy to live with Him! Here's a little eg of His bedtime humour: W/we were both in bed, talking etc ... and then He says: "OK pet, time to turn the light off" (main light, switch on the wall by the door). i look at Him, grin and say "OK so i guess You're going to make the OLD girl get up and do it [;)]" (well, i am 15 years older than Him!). "Of course," He says, sounding very serious, "you know I can't turn the light off any more". "Why not?" (puzzled look). His answer? "Because I'm not a switch!" DUUUUUHHHH! So guess which old switch girl got up and turned it off? [:D] Maam Jay aka violet[A]
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