Mavis
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ORIGINAL: slavejali Someone here wrote a story about how her Master helped her quit smoking, i loved it. He sat a pack of cigarettes down and said, you can only have one Master "choose". I think when the right Master comes along, all our little habits may not seem so important. (Wish I could remember who told the story). Oh jali, that's so wicked, and so true. When i first started with the Him, He said i wouldn't have to quit. But recently the doctor said i have to, and it's become a huge issue. i had quit once before for nearly 4 years, and i went back to it because i liked it. Now, quitting is just 4 times harder. Now, under that "What kind of Master would I be if I stood by and let you kill yourself?" clause, The Him is directing me to quit. It should be so simple to choose the Master that cares for me over the 20 little masters in that package, but i truly struggle with it. i have never felt so willful and rebellious in my life, and i am shocked i even have the capacity to keep disobeying that direct order, something i have never ever done before. i've gotten on zyban pills to help, but that doesn't ease myself, and the Him knowing that i wasn't able to do it out of pure obedience. i think that knowledge might be the worst punishment of all. to the OP, i know of several Doms with the smoking fetish, one in memphis that adores seeing women with long cig holders and curls of smoke... you may find one. but don't forget, if doctor changes your plan, Dom might support doc. <grins>
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