MistressRosalyn
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I have had some wonderful furbabies over the years. My first was Mama Grey, I chose her when I was 8...she had just been born while I was at school, and when I peeked under the bed to see the babies, she came right over to me and chose me. I had her for 16 years. Then we briefly had Fang, the Ferocious Ferengi cat. Long story over the name, and even longer story about him breeding with a purebred Himi and a Himi Mix to produce Rajah, Yazmine, Kat Mandu, and Meer Kat. Two days before we went to bring the new babies home, Fang was hit by a car. So instead of only one baby, we ended up with 4 of them! Kat Mandu disappeared late one night, I think an owl or coyote got her. Meer Kat was taken by some vindictive neighbors out to the middle of the desert and dumped. Two months later, she showed up! We had her for another 8 months, and one week before she was hit by a car, a stray tabby polydactyl showed up, and we rescued her and called her our porch kitty...aka Miss Porsche. We lost Rajah to old age almost exactly 5 years ago, and I had to put Yaz down almost 3 years ago. Damned near broke my heart each time. Even worse, I had to put Thor, our black lab, down one month after I put Yazmine down. That was very rough. We still have Miss Porsche...and she is about to cross the bridge in the next couple of days, if not on her own, then I will have to help her. She has had a stroke, has lost one eye, can barely eat, but still gets around OK. It's so hard when they are OK on one level, and yet so not OK on other levels. She is my daughter's cat, yet she cannot bear to put her down, or to have me do it, but I believe that at some point, while my daughter is at work, that Miss Porsche and I will go for that final ride. I feel as though I am betraying my daughter's trust, but when Miss P looks at me, and follows me everywhere, even to the point of sleeping on my bed for the first time in 12 years, I feel as though she is asking me for that final mercy. I hope I can have the strength, and the compassion to do what needs to be done for Porsche's sake. Bast, if you are merciful, please take her to yourself without my intervention.
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Member of Lance's Fag Hags. I have 20 Fluffy Points and you don't! I went to the Dark Side...now where are the cookies? When did my life become a Jerry Springer/Jeremy Kyle episode?
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