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CynthiaWVirginia -> RE: At what age did You know? (12/20/2010 8:50:54 PM)
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ORIGINAL: mratyourservice
i was very fortunate to come across two females in my childhood who exhibited some behaviors that led me to believe they had a dominant side to them. Behaviors such as enjoying humiliating me, giving orders etc. and at a very young age.
So, were some of You ladies showing signs of Your dominant nature at a young age.
Was I a leader at a very young age? Yes. I was fair and popular; older kids in my neighborhood liked my being in charge. When mom noticed this, she got upset and told me I was not to boss boys around...
When I was in second grade, I watched some cartoon that had a girl forcing a boy through some machine that would turn him into a harpie (?) and he was begging her not to. She kept doing it anyway. It was very disturbing to have such a seething intensity of emotions erupt over this, and no way on earth was I going to talk about having strangely erotic daydreams that I couldn't even understand.
Yes, I watched all those tv shows like Batman and Robin and was drawn to the moments when they were tied up and tormented. It was funny to find out that the boys at our apartment complex loved it when I tied them up with my jump rope while playing capture games with them.
I knew that I was some kind of sicko by the fifth grade, when I had a crush on a boy in my classroom. [:D] I couldn't stop daydreaming about him that year, thank goodness he never found out. I am clueless about where all the sadosmasochistic dreams came from, though I guessed the bondage stuff came from all the tv shows I watched. He liked this other girl...and I "knew" this when on her birthday, he took off his belt and chased her all over the classroom threatening to spank her. They were boyfriend and girlfriend soon after that, so evidently she didn't hold it against him.
I buried everything after that for a long time, and "discovering" BDSM was like waking up from a deep sleep.
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