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RedBottomGirl26 -> RE: feeling guilty about being submissive (12/24/2010 4:43:24 PM)
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Betty, I understand part of your concern, perhaps you are afraid people would think less of you, if you allowed them to understand further parts of yourself (you will find on average most people would not be shocked if you act natural about things). I think this is perhaps the biggest fear of most subs (and I think some Doms are like this too, any time you open yourself up to anything, there is a small chance something bad can get in. But, at the same time, if you are closed to everyone, then nothing good can get in either). It is a fine line to walk & I do sympathize with your situation. I am glad you are happy with what you are experiencing now, but just realize it is a really "new" thing, it could all fall apart faster than you might expect (esp. with it only being online only at this point). Take a few precautions to guard your heart & body a little bit, people can be selfish & uncharacteristically cold when the newness of you wears off. Though, maybe you will get lucky & meet the rare person who will go through with things they say they will.
Little wonder, aren't you being a bit harsh this time of year? Don't you think it's good that more people are trying to come out of the closest as it were (being ashamed of what and who you are is usually the prime factor of why most people are unhappy or discontented). Perhaps, people are just proud that they feel like they belong to something and have finally found something that they have sought, and just want to share it with someone (perhaps they can't with friends or family, & maybe sharing it allows them to feel a part of something greater than themselves).
I urge you to vere away from solely online stuff Betty, I really do (you might find after a time, it leaves you feeling more empty than full). It is fine to make friends with, but please don't expect too many relationships to form over a virtual format. It is fine as a starting tool to build on, but I urge you to get out there and try to make real connections (they can sometimes be disappointing, and maybe nothing like how you imagine it would be, but I also urge you to stick to real world solutions, letters are a great way of expressing yourself, but sometimes you just won't know how you truly feel about someone, until you are in person with them).
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