sansa -> RE: What Frightens You? (1/5/2011 11:55:28 PM)
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i've known my Master for about 7 years now. He and i have played off and on over those years, so i wasn't afraid of how He well He would like me, my body, how i serve, etc. my fear when i begged His collar was of rejection. Rejection seems to be something that has plagued me in the past, and i fear it as much as i fear the sensation of falling (literally physically falling, as in off a ladder or off any high place...can't do suspension because of it) i fear not being good enough for Him to want to build a future together, with me. i fear He will one day come to me and tell me He's found someone else to build that future with, and that she's uncomfortable with my being in the picture. i fear that no matter how much i love Him or how much i do to try to please Him, it will still end up the same as all relationships have ended for me. Painfully.
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