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Punished - 6/20/2011 6:49:55 AM   
SubBBW28


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no matter what i say
no matter what i do
i'll never be good enough
to kneel infront of you

you made your intentions clear
my heart got in the way
you closed me off, you shut me down
And i've been crying since that day

you said that i was perfect
i exceeded all your expectations
6 months later i'm not worth your time
not even your salutations

i sit here and I write
now i've finally found my muse
to bad to fight my writers block
I feel beatened and confused

i'll never know what i did wrong
and why you left me when you did
i look high and low, i scream your name
but you've run away and hid

you left me with no answers
you refuse to give me closure
now ill wipe my tears away
and regain some of my composure

Only time will truely heal
the pain i feel inside
but i will continue my journey
and ill search for Him with pride

Now i'm going to do something
no sub should ever have to do
i hold my head up high, i speak out loud
"I release myself from you"

-Me (June 2011)
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RE: Punished - 6/20/2011 7:05:54 AM   
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First off I have to say that is very well written.  Second, I am sorry you had to write it.  :(  It can be cathartic, however, and I hope it was to you.  It is a sad fact that relationships do sometimes end before we want them to, but I fully agree that closure is necessary.  I find it quite cowardly of a person to not give a reason to end it, and just run off.  I do hope you find someone that suits you better, you definitely deserve it.  Oh!  And definitely, positively keep writing!  (Especially if you have any poems about cats...not that I'm biased or anything, really!  Uhm...yeah..) 

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RE: Punished - 8/30/2011 9:00:21 AM   
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A bit younger than you, but very familiar with things going in and out of my life. They say there is two things in life that will always be constant. Thats change and change :). The only thing you can do is channel these emotions into something that prepares you for future complications. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst lil lady. After a while you get a sense of learning to control your smiles and cries. Thats the key to life because your heart can decieve you at times...

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RE: Punished - 8/30/2011 1:29:15 PM   
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You gave your self power just by "releasing your self" thats a good start,dont fake or control your smile and cry ,Ive said this a hundred times if you pay attention to the "RED FLAGS" and act when you see them instead of hoping it will get better,every one that gets together is not meant to BE together!

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RE: Punished - 9/1/2011 7:29:30 PM   
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Thats the difference between a man and a woman. science back me up. Women has a higher level of emotion changing hormones. once you learn to your emotions. You'll endure a lot. emotion is a root to adictions. It open the doors to make better decision. It enables you pick your battles. I will stand by that as a man.

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RE: Punished - 9/1/2011 8:13:31 PM   
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SubBBw28, this is a wonderful statement of pain and healing. I hope it helps to make you feel better to get it out. A creative soul never stays lonely long(my grandmother used to say that) Because creative people have a way of shining like stars even at the darkest time. People are naturally attracted to that. I know what a broken heart feels like so I do feel for you. But you really have empowered yourself here....don't let that go. Hold on to knowing your own self worth and a better partner will come to you.

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MrMarshall you are talking about the difference between "fight-or-flight" and "tend-and-befriend." The first commonly followed by men, the latter by women. Men are more likely than women to respond to stressful experiences by developing certain stress-related disorders, including hypertension , aggressive behavior, or abuse of alcohol , or hard drugs. Where on the other hand the tend-and-befriend response may protect women against stress. There are some rare stresser(like broken heart syndrome) that do more harm to women than men. In both cases people believing that they should hide, or that they can control their emotions, cause even more stress. Which isn't good for anyone.

ETA- *oh* and that thing about "more emotion changing hormones" Women also make more of the hormone that allowes people to deal with stress than men do.

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