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hangemhigh1953 -> Hi everyone... total newb here (7/8/2011 8:39:16 PM)
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Hi everyone! I'm a 19 year old "guy" from California, doing a lot of soul searching. I'm currently a virgin, and I've never done any BDSM stuff before but lately I've been interested in it. I put "guy" in quotation marks, because I'm not sure if I'm just a crossdresser or if I'm transexual. I don't think this would be just a kink for me, because I'm mostly interested in the emotional aspect of it; and I would probably be a sub or a slave, but like I said, I just don't know much right now about who I truly am. I'm mostly straight as I've only ever been emotionally attracted to women, but I definitely have a bi side that is interested in sexual fantasies with men, though I don't think I'd ever pursue that.
For now I'm just looking to participate in the message boards to learn more about this stuff to see if I'm truly interested, but one of my fantasies is, perhaps in time, to be a sissy maid/slave to a loving Mistress, provided I get to know her first and am sure I love and trust her. I've always been a very submissive person and my whole reason for living is to make other people happy, I even get depressed when I am unable or denied the privilege of helping others, and I am uncomfortable whenever I have to pursue my own selfish interests, which is the main reason I'm interested in maybe subbing/being a slave.
Anyways, sorry for the long post, but I look forward to meeting some friends and learning about this lifestyle!
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