stoni23
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I have had this before. I processed pain differently. I'll explain: 1. I normally process pain like I meditate. If there is pain involved (and I usually meditate with nipple clamps on) then I take the pain, and channel the pain through my privates (or at least tell my brain I am). While I'm doing this I take deep breaths with my eyes closed, and try to focus beyond my eyelids. This, partnered with long deep breaths, usually brings me into lala land subspace. 2. I encountered the situation differently. I've only been able to do it once, and have failed to re-create it, but I'll be damned sure and keep trying. Instead of processing the pain, I kept telling myself I liked it. Even though it was hurting like hell (wooden paddles are a bitch), I kept telling myself MORE MORE MORE. I was basically yelling in my mind that I wanted more. Before too long, I somehow convinced myself that I was in fact enjoying it. In came an erection (which I NEVER get during beating play), and the next thing I knew I was begging to be hit more. I am not a pain pig by any stretch of the means, and yet I WANTED to be hit as much as possible, and was completely clear headed, and able to ask. I even asked for the bottoms of my feet to be caned (which since then I have not been able to withstand). The only problem with scenario number 2: If I don't start into scenario number 1 relatively quickly in beatings I find that I cannot get there. If scenario number 2 fails for me, then I'm screwed and usually end up safe wording out of the beating, because I can't handle it. So, it's somewhat of a catch 22 for me, since now I try to reach that OMG GIVE ME PAIN status and somehow can't convince my brain to do it, but once that fails I can't get into normal headspace because my pain threshold is already surpassed.
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