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AneNoz -> RE: a premptive farewell (10/11/2011 2:41:26 AM)
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It is with great hesitation that I make this posting, for many will be angered or find laughter in that which I am to say. This, like much that is, is not to my liking, yet it is as it is, and cannot be turned aside. I feel that it is ripe for me at this time to speak on what I have seen.
When first I saw the postings of this Hannah, I was taken much aback. Who was this angry woman, this screeching harpy full so much of anger and vituperation? I placed her under hide and was again at peace. Then I reactions I did see from posters for whom I hold respect and they were approving of her words. This brought me to wonder, what did these people, all good and wise, see in the sayings of this foul mouthed barbarian. And further I saw, also as well, her slave, a woman of intelligence and articulate both. To see her love expressed along with admiration. To read from her how she has learned much from this vile Hannah. What is this, what have I missed that these people have seen? So I removed the hide and again took notice of her words, with utmost care this time.
Something that was an amazement to me occurred, I perceived there was much truth and wisdom in the words laying hidden behind the foul overlay, as gems beneath manure. Even in much of the foolish postings lies this wisdom. I determined then to understand further, and so looked with more attention yet. Then more amazement. There was not anger in her, she had said so on repeated occasions, yet as with many others this was dismissed by me. Was not the proof before my eyes? But it is true, there is no anger. The words suggest to those who wish to see it, but it is not present if one looks not to find it. This perturbed me; this caused me to question, much as you do here. Why? Why this person who could be a great teacher do thus, why hide behind a veil of profanity and seeming anger? Why hide one's wisdom so?
Then it came upon me when reading her question on her philosophy, where she did begin with calm and politeness, with a clear display of her the thoughts she was having on her dilemma. The light was illuminated. On this posting she wishes to be understood with ease, thus again on other postings it must be that she wishes not to be understood with ease. It is her desire that one must make the effort to see. The lessons are for those who will see, not for those who will not. And to see, one must try. An effort is required as with the gaining of all things of worth.
Much becomes clear to me upon this realization; the profanity even is serving its purpose. It is liberating us from its grip. With each post I see it less. It becomes but an emphasis, it counts out the meter and cadence of the thinking. They have become words without any meaning, but fillers of space. They have lost their power. Fuck, shit and cunt mean nothing now to me. Further, upon reflection, on her words, that the way I react is on me, I came to see that this was so. The words have no power from my not granting them power. Again with new insight comes realization. No words have power not of my granting. It is my choice to find insult in such words with no meaning. And so it is as well with the anger and insults also. They become the less; they have little meaning when spread so freely upon the ground. As a seed, only they do sprout if I nurture them, I must allow them to grow. Great release is in this lesson, for I am freed from insults, I am freed of my slavery to the opinion of others. From this comes further insight, this lesson applies to all. If I am angered, it is but as I allow. If I am saddened, it is but as I allow. It is upon me to choose the emotions which occur, no longer must I be the slave, but they to me.
I looked again and saw again more. When arguing, often the way is led by her with subtlety and deft words; the ones who question do so as she has wished them to. The lesson that it is that she wishes to impart is by small degrees revealed not only in her words, but in the words of those who debate. She is leading the debate as the wind leads a storm, the path it follows is not of the choosing of those who question, but of her choosing. She ends when the lesson has been revealed, when the desired insight has been shown. When a debate is begun, it is as a teacher with her plan of the lesson. A goal there is, an end towards which we are to led. When this goal is reached, the debate is at an end. The lesson has been taught, the goal is achieved. It remains for us to find the truth that has been shown in all that has transpired.
This is not an easy thing in all times, for it is hidden in many places, but it can be found with careful reading of what has been said and how. Often will she say to see the whole of the posting beyond the words, this is the method we are to use. Not alone is what is it she does say and what questions she does pose, that are of import. Also, as well, what points she does challenge and in the manner of it. Those challenges are of importance to the lesson; they reveal a way to the truth if one can but see. As with any teacher of worth, the wisdom is not served upon a platter. It is like unto a parable, it is obscured. All is as a metaphor; all is wrapped in an armour of profanity and challenge and hidden meanings and emotions. When her words invoke anger, it is as she wishes it; one should look within and question the why of it. When her words invoke outrage, it is as she wishes it; one must question, again, the why. And so forth with all emotions so invoked, there is purpose. The challenge is to seek within your understanding the answers she is offering you.
Thus it is that I have come to conclude that this Hannah Lynn is a teacher of some importance. Not as a prophet to be heralded, but merely as a teacher before a class, to impart small insights of what is and what should be. She is thus to me, and it is my belief that she is to be thus to others as well. Many will dispute that which I have concluded, but this is of small import, for the lessons have been seen by myself, and thus for me it is so. If you would but look with the intent to see, the lessons would also, perhaps, be there as well for you.
This is as it has been shown to me, this is as I have seen it to be, and thus I believe it is so.
Be at peace Aneka
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