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LillyBoPeep -> RE: A Dom who feels guilty about being one? (11/27/2011 12:56:55 PM)
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Reeds I can relate to what you said about realizing that your ideas about life annd yourself were wrong. I think that's kinda where I am now. I had a relationship where all these "scary" parts of me suddenly became "okay," the that went away very suddenly and I shut off. Butnow, being involved in something that doesnnt quite take me "there" has given me a clear idea of where "there" really is, and in a lot of ways it bothers me.
When I was young, I was this alarmingly violentlittle person, but no one would really guess it because I was a small, cute girl. There was just a lot of very dark stuff floating around in my noggin, and I'm having to accept that maybe it's still there, I've jjust learnned to channel it in different ways. I'm an s-person, but we aren't blanks whoare merely acted on - we have things upstairs, too.
But some of it bothers me because I feel like it's incongrous with the "me" I've tried to cultivate.
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