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kystray -> Howdy (1/3/2012 8:09:08 AM)
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KY Boy here - A bit.. timid, I guess is the word. See, I do know what I desire - but I have trouble even admitting it to myself sometimes. The level of depravity that I crave is sometimes frightening. I'm not so interested in the bondage, sadism or masochism. But I am definitely attracted to domination and humiliation. The depravity I mentioned has to do with raunch fetishes. Also, though I do crave this deeply dark sexual relationship, there's also a part of me that craves tenderness and respect. I haven't yet gotten comfortable with my own desires to imagine that these two traits might coexist in a relationship. But I believe it to be possible, and so I am doing all that I can to openly admit my desires - all of them - to myself and find self-acceptance, that I might one day be able to find an appropriate relationship that fulfills these desires.
Whew, I feel like I just made a confession at a 12-step meeting! So, that's my story. Glad to have a space where I feel safe enough to share it with other human creatures.
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