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RE: Master's guilt - 6/3/2006 11:12:07 AM

MLskajira

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she doesnt think she will get a hot fudge sundae but she has been getting some special treats and treatment.
she would like again to thank E/everyone for T/their advice, if she had not come here and asked her question, her Master may be a bit upset with her for her constant blathering about how o.k. she is, and may have even put her to the test to see for Himself.
thank Y/you all for saving her some uneccassary grief that would have been brought on by herself and her driving desire to consistantly please her Master

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RE: Master's guilt - 6/4/2006 2:07:10 PM

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Having read through the other posts I thought I would have something to add on the guilt question ...

yes I am a sadist , I have Known that all my life , from being a baby and biting people to the days when I was a bouncer and collector for various nefarious business's I have always like to urt people , for and occupation and for my own pleasure . But I would notbe who I am If I didn't question WHY. All My life I have born Guilt for this and I can say there is a part of me that still does even in the realms of consesual BDSM .

I ask Myself why I feel I have the right to inflict pain on people and bend them to my will . Keep in Mind pysical pain is not the end here , there is also psycological and emotional pain , Usually caused by being selfish . Part of how I deal with it is an Ideal that gets me in a lot of " discussions" and that is simple " I cause pain in the serives of others, I hurt people because they want me too. Vastly different from breaking someones arm so they will pay their bookie. And it helps to set aside some of the guilt I felt when I didnt really care how I was affecting others.

These days I am At times cruel but within the confines of Consent ::smile:: well usually , an incident comes to mind that once I stopped laughing I felt a bit Guilty about , It involves the morning after a particulary harsh Singletail scene and My "First girl " Robin . She ame in that morning complaining that her bottom Hurt from the scene , It did look like hamburger because it was a long and intence scene . She asked me if I thought it was a good Idea to run Icy Hot on it to alleviate the Soreness and without thinking about my reply I said yes.

She spent the next two hours in the bathtub Cursing my name , We laugh about it now but thinking back it was a quite cruel thing to do.

As for Dom drop I will say that its not something I have experienced personally But then since I am rarely " out of scene" In otherwords since this is my life and not a persona I put on and take off to go to my Vanilla Job I think I may veiw it differently. What I experience is the pressure of always being " On" and once and awhile I just need to get off on my own for awhile. Not easy to do with an extended " Pack" and a School to run . But I find when i can get off alone and meditate those creeping feelings of presure and Guilt tend to float off in the ether.

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RE: Master's guilt - 6/4/2006 2:53:38 PM

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Greetings MLskajira, i'll make this very breif...(AFTERCARE!) no matter how severe the strikes, be it from punishment or kindness, he must provide the proper
aftercare not only to assure your safe return from subspace, but also to return your power and look after your physcial well being. sometimes it may take just a few minutes, after a real intense scene it might take a few hours.. but this will also serve to build confidence in himself knowing that his actions were ok and well received...
waa laaaa no more guilty feelings.

peace, D_Journeyman.

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RE: Master's guilt - 6/4/2006 4:23:18 PM

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MLskajira,

I have to agree with all that has posted here.
There are many levels of aftercare and your Master sounds like he is an honest caring individual that is concerned for his kajira!
Let him be concerned. Just as all have said let him know you are proud to wear his marks and are ok.
I require lots of aftercare, that is just me. My Dom/Mentor knows this and knows what I need whether it be talking, petting, rubbing or kissing the marks he left. I also know that I need to reassure him that I am fine, blissful and proud to wear his marks or badge of color. It is an honor for me and I see it with you as well.

Be well! You sound like you have an incredible relationship with your Master!

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RE: Master's guilt - 6/4/2006 4:25:48 PM

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its all about pussee...dont let anyone tell you any different...

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