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alovelylady4U -> Wanted: A safe place to ask and learn (6/1/2006 1:20:27 PM)
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i am leeli (aka alovelylady4u). i am fairly new to the lifestyle in many ways. Yet in some ways i know it well. i was born a natural submissive and very much encouraged to be so. i was also raised in a more poly type or group experience than most. i know sometimes i do speak out of turn or out of place- yet i have so many questions still.
i have learned, defined, experienced and redefined myself as well as my "good match." i have re-invented, improved and over hauled my entire self as i was forced to face, then, embrace ,my position in life. i am a sub with the heart of a slave? Possibly. i have learned some handles can mis lead, limit or be mis understood. In my heart-i know what i am and enjoy very much being a s/sl. i realize i am not a good match for many- but for One? a perfect match.
A perfect lady in public. The political wife forever promoting her Master in a positive light. The 50's housewife-giving to Him all He commands. And His total slut in private. Doing even the darkest of His desires without question, or the slightest hesitation, and never so much as mentioned to another. i have chatted with so many wonderful P/people here on the site. (and some not so wonderful.) Each with a great lesson, idea, word or thoughts.
But what about real? So many time it is skipped, passed by, walked around, avoided and so on. i am new and there are no rule books, i have so many questions. Trainer once said to ask now leeli, be certain, once you kneel before Him with wrists raised and crossed, once He accepts your surrender- your time for questions will end in many ways and your time to learn and obey will begin.
So if i may? i have a million questions.
respectfully
leeli
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