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chatterbox24 -> RE: Update on Master does not want to have sex (3/2/2012 5:47:58 AM)
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ORIGINAL: Sailasub
What a fascinating, entertaining and sad thread. It really covers a wide range of human reactions and shows the less than pleasant and judgmental side of so many people. A lot fo what I am reading here is "My kink is OK but your kink is not." Sad when you consider that if vanilla people at your work or community knew of your kink they would also condemn you without really understanding.What I see here is a woman whose kink is to be used and humiliated but does not fully acknowledge this - or at least has not been able to explain it clearly to the group here. She's into being a doormat and the group criticizes her for that. Her original post was that she was not getting fucked or sodomized. She never said she expected to have an orgasm. I suspect she would be happy to get used and abused far more than she has been, and would accept denied orgasms as part of the expression of her master's control over her. Her master understood that and actually gave her what she wanted.
For those that start insisting that orgasm is necessary, that is your personal kink. My sub originally never expected to get orgasms but wanted to be fucked and used to satisfy me. It was a surprise when she started having orgasms but now I wonder if she hasn't gotten spoiled and if the relationship hasn't turned so that I am servicing her rather than her servicing me... LOL. Maybe when she recovers in a few months we can play with orgasm control an denial. :)
A sad angle of this is that OP sounds like a bit of a bitch in regular life, and she is matched with an asshole hubby. She told him what she was doing and was stupid enough not to be discreet with her online stuff. Hubby actually made an effort to find her stuff and find and contact the master. Obviously hubby is jealous / angry / vindictive. When the master dumped her hubby got what he wanted. Maybe he is even hoping that by being enough of an asshole he can get her back? Or at least get her to give him BJs... LOL.
As to why her master won't fuck/sodomize her - I can only guess that she is fat or old or otherwise unattractive so there is no incentive to do so. But even if she was OK looking there is little incentive to to so if she gives really good BJs. And there is plenty of incentive not to bang her... If she got what she wanted she might start thinking she is in control or important, and lose interest in the master. By denying her he keeps her wanting him. He might also not really care that much if he has other sluts or she is not attractive to him.
I think that OP needs to really re-evaluate her relationship with hubby and lay down some privacy and behavior rules or get out of the marriage. I think the kids are a real unfortunate victim here because the hubby sounds pretty screwed up given his vindictiveness and I am not sure the OP is any less vindictive, angry and shrewish. Emotions and behavior like this and the resulting tension is hard to hide from the kids. Hmmm.... maybe I should not give advice here since I'm in a bad marriage and "stayed for the kid....".
I am kind of looking for the next episode of this drama - after sufficient begging master will let her give him a BJ again... and she will again be unhappy that it's not more but happy to be on her knees.
OP - I think you should fill out your profile, post a picture and try to convince us why you are worthy as a sub/slut. You might get lucky and find another Dom every bit and maybe even more accomplished as your former Dom. Yes, you can fall for another just as hard if not harder.
Final thought - some here criticized the shared bank account. If the master were to use the money only for his own benefit then yes, it's a foolish move for her and is actually verging on him being a prostitute. (Of course she could be turned on at the thought of being used that way.) However, I know one sub who entered into a Financial Shibari arrangement like this. She and her hubby were always in financial straights and the master put them on a budget and kept some of the $$. Recently she needed a car, and the master bought it, cash. She would never have been able to do that in the past. Of course, she could be the exceptionally lucky one.
Want to address this post.
Paragraph one: Alot of the posts recieved back by me were from peoples judgemental shitty comments. Continuos inisistance I was lying. Thus recieving back sarcastic bitchy comments in return.
Paragraph three: Sweet as honey unless provoked. I am a fire cracker and come out fighting. My master was the only one who could sooth those rages.
Paragraph four: I am not even going to argue about my appearance. You may think I am old ugly and fat. Maybe master thought so. He said I was attractive but who knows anymore. I picked him from a line up of many, so I cant be that nasty.
Paragraph five: Absolutely no arguments here
Paragraph 6 I begged a couple times in the relationship with a PLEASe, i thought well maybe thats what he wanted. But as a rule I DONT BEG. If that is some tell call sub trait I am absolutely not a sub.
Paragraph 7 I am not putting up a profile nor showing my picture. If I ever wanted to look (NO INTEREST) it would be looking to see who I found worthy not the other way around.
I loved my Master, still do. I think I was waiting around for him to please me, some kind of change over time. I became a doormat for HIM ONLY. He is not interchangable, there is no one like him. When I said he dumped me, I meant he said we needed to back off awhile, next time we talked I said we were through. It was just to much drama and I was fighting for someone I was never going to have a life with. It doesnt matter who dumped who anyway. Believe whatever you want. I couldnt keep being a doormat without it makng me terrible inside.
I only participated in this lifestyle because of him. I didnt know anything about, it was introduced to me. He was my interest and it was his interest, I did it for him. Took him many months to get me to where I got. Cause I really could not understand a one sided concept. If i woud have got a return on what I needed or wanted, not what he thought I needed or wanted. I would have kept fighting for the relationship. Yep thats right with kids, husband and all.
There is so much people dont know about this situation.
I think I was looking for a spiced vanilla relationship with him, one he could not give, one he wasnt interested in. When you give to somoene who has your best interest in mind its great! But then you give to somoene who has their best interest in mind, its crushing. The husband finding this thread, showing Master was just the end all. I was already asking all the questions to myself. "why am i doing this?" the only defense i had is "I love him" There is no way in hell I was going celibate for the rest of my life, or being passed to another guy cause the guy I loved couldnt perform. It all was just plain crazy, thats all I can say about it at the moment.
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