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chatterbox24 -> RE: Update on Master does not want to have sex (3/6/2012 7:17:41 AM)
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ORIGINAL: littlewonder
I don't think it has anything to do with her/him not getting it but more that she/he stopped taking her/his meds.
Here is a perfect quote, right at the end of this thread to show the maturity level of alot of this crowd. You wonder why I have responded the way I have? OBVIOUSLY YOU DONT GET IT.
My first post about my EX master didnt entail details about me being married because I had one question and one question alone about BDSM. Was this normal behavior or training in a sub to be denied for this length of time. I truly thought it was some kind of ritual that given time the sub would start getting rewarded. I had some really good advice given, then the nasty remarks started about how I was probably frumpy and fat, putting words in my mouth that I thought THIS WAS MY LAST CHANCE. please. THen it became a game of making fun of me because I loved a man who treated me poorly and you had great fun smashing it in my face that I was a cleaning lady, bj giver, a bank and when I was making an agonizing decision. THen when I had doubts and stayed with him, and started idolizing him again because GOD DID I WANT TO BELIEVE IN HIM..... many of you all INSISTED I was crazy, over and over over and over I was told that. I dont care what you say it is very normal for someone going thru a bad break up , where they find they have been used up, to have every feeling imaginable surface. I still love this man even, but its changing, I see the true colors now, and it soon will be a final despisal of him. So bascially all alot of you did was KICK ME WHEN I WAS DOWN.
Later I said I was married, and it did do exactly what I pretty much knew it would do. IT got even more complicated with peoples judgements, insults etc. But I did it anyway cause if i was going to tell my story, I was going to tell the whole story, no matter what peoples reactions would be. BUt I did leave out a few parts about my marriage. THat I had been physical abused most of them, and verbally all of them. Threats of every kind imaginable have been used to keep me here, and there are some people who back up there threats, and I live with one of them. I feel no guilt for looking outside my marriage. NONE. Why did I stay? because of the devastation I KNEW that would develop for my kids.
I did the back and forth thing with EX master, oh i love him, oh he is bad for me, oh I love him........oh he is bad for me won. The argument my husband and I had about master was not the first one, there have been several....I just shared one with you.
Ex master did not dump me.......why would he? He was well on his way to financially controlling me, getting his sexual groove on, putting out next to zero effort toward me.........he wanted to keep his supplier, the narcissist loved the fix I gave him but he never loved me. So when he tried to talk to me about being careful, he was talking about continuing and finally after all this time I put my foot down. I found the strength within me to end it, best thing I have ever did.
I imagne this man probably has a line up in this past from people he did this too, and got way more financial then he did me. I hope not, but since he would REFUSE to talk of his past, somehow I think there are many more out there.
I see peoples posts on here, I see people right on this forum, flip flopping their views according to the thread. I see people who no matter what I write follow me around on other threads with their nasty remarks. SO YES YOU GET A REACTION. I was simply in a very complicated situation and actually remain in one due to my marriage.
YOu are constantly saying how I WONT TAKE RESPONSIBLITY. What is so funny, A FEW OF YOU DONT TAKE IT YOURSELF BUT YOU PREACH ABOUT IT.
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