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Kaliko -> RE: Cravings (2/25/2012 8:08:30 AM)
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ORIGINAL: BitaTruble
How does a craving effect you? Does the craving go away if you just ignore it or does it go to the front of your mind, like it can with me, until everything else pales to the crave?
I suppose it depends on what we're talking about, but since this isn't in Casual Banter I'll assume you're not talking about my midnight cravings for chocolate.
crave [kreyv] Show IPA verb, craved, crav·ing.
verb (used with object)
1. to long for; want greatly; desire eagerly: to crave sweets; to crave affection.
2. to require; need: a problem craving prompt attention.
3. to ask earnestly for (something); beg for.
4. to ask (a person) earnestly for something or to do something.
So...it's hard to consider the word craving past a craving for sweets or an intense, sudden rush for some delicious, but deviant, act, which is how I've always used the term. But if I were to think on it, my craving for a certain type of man is, in fact, making all others pale to that craving. It's both wreaking a certain bit of havoc on my life - as I am, as a result of this craving, not open to considering anyone who seems just a bit off track from what I crave - but at the same time, is providing some focus. I know exactly what I want (crave) and am limiting my time spent with men to those that have the possibility of satisfying that craving. It is, though, a very, very narrow window. Many have pointed this out to me - some friends even from these boards.
Surprisingly (to me, anyway) it's not necessarily a dominant man that is my craving. It's the extreme man. That whatever he does, it is done more, better, bigger than the others. Not necessarily career and definitely not money. I mean life. Attitude. Views. Embracing opportunities. That whatever lot he's chosen for himself, that he does it in a grander fashion than others. That is the type of man I look up to and can see myself submitting to, so that is the type of man I crave. That is also the type of man that I believe will accept the more extreme type of personal relationship that I enjoy. I could be wrong. I hope I get the chance to at least test my theory.
So, my most intense craving at the moment (moment = far too many months) has not gone away. I've tried ignoring it and covering it up with exercise, volunteer work, new and old hobbies, but still - my body and my mind react only to a man that fits what I think will satisfy my craving. I wish I was that woman that can date men just to see what happens, or just to enjoy a night out. But I can't even get myself halfway motivated to meet someone unless they jumped out at me in some very big way. It's probably not a good thing.
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if you aren't getting what you crave, you're rather stuck with working on other things which can, as an end result, help you achieve growth in different areas and, perhaps, if you are lucky help round you out in a way that allows you to satisfy your cravings at a future point.
If you're in the mood for some heavy reading, I posted a journal entry on the other side a few days ago that is to this effect. Moving on with other areas of my life, blah blah blah.
ETA - I am, though, wicked craving some carbs right now.
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