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kitkat105 -> To Sir With Love (2/25/2012 2:52:16 AM)
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I've been meaning to get around to posting this for awhile. I finally have the opportunity. While we did not strictly meet on CM, I want to put this here because if it weren't for CM encouraging my new found love for D/s & BDSM, I may not have gone all subfrenzied!
To get kind of personal, I had been existing in a bad situation for the last 8 years. I was young, stupid & inexperienced when it came to thinking I knew what love was. It was completely vanilla but toxic to the point of thinking suicide would be my only escape. Four months ago, my then fiance went on vacation for 6 weeks... when I dropped him off at the airport I cried tears of relief that we would be separated.
A few days later, Odeen came back into my life after disappearing from it for those 8 years. We originally met in a Yahoo BDSM chatroom but fell out of contact. I 'forgot' about BDSM despite wanting to always be a bottom. Multiple triggers had occured in the last 12-24 months that made me want to end that relationship, but, was too scared. Without Odeen's respect, love and support I would not have been able to walk away from it.
So on November 22nd, I turned our lives upside down, walked away from my old life and began living my new one with Odeen. What started as an amazing friendship, blossomed into a D/s relationship so loving and fulfilling it makes me cry tears of joy. Our instant connection is true love and we want to spend the rest of our lives together. I knew the moment he picked me up from the airport that this was it.
Odeen challenges me in ways I didn't think possible, both emotionally and physically. It doesn't matter whether I'm doing something simple around the home, or he's beating me with a cane... the love and intimacy of those moments is intoxicating. I've never trusted another human being like this. I didn't even know it was possible to feel this way about someone. He has taught me what I want out of life and that's to serve & submit to him.. and hopefully one day even total surrender.
I am so happy. Words on a screen just don't do it justice. The sun seems brighter, the air fresher.. food even tastes better. He's not solely responsible for my happiness but has contributed to it more than he knows. We (unfortunately) have to spend the next 5 months doing the long distance relationship thing, but when I return to the US in July, we'll get married and start our life together. I can't wait.
Forever yours,
your squishy kitten kitkat
xoxoxoxo
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