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joshspet1980 -> A New To Site N Submission BBW (3/13/2012 8:19:27 PM)
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My name is Delaine and I am new to this site as well as to being a submissive. My fiance is also new to the site and to being a Master. I have never felt a desire to lead this sort of lifestyle nor engage in this kind of sexual play before. I have always been one to keep control in a relationship and argued at every step. I have always had a spirit of curiosity and a wish to experiment with various sexual experiences, but BDSM has never seemed to call to me before. I am a woman who believes in the Bible and Christ, but am not a strictly practicing one.
More recently, since I have met my fiance, the passages that deal with the man being the head of the household and the woman not denying him access to intimacy nor the man denying the woman intimacy have been blaring at me. I have read them before, but they never bothered me.I ignored it. But this man that I am with now. There is something about him that is calling me. I WANT to submit to him. I WANT to give him his rights as head of our household and I NEVER want to deny him intimacy or access to my body, my mind, my spirit. I have COMPLETE trust in this man.
I have been through one abusive relationship after another since I was 18 and he is the first man I've been with in all that time that was not abusive in some form. Maybe that's why I fought so hard. But with this man, I WANT to be dominated in every way. Now, since I am new and have gone through true abuse and not just sexual play that I encouraged, I need guidance and direction. I have joined this site as well as some Yahoo groups, one which is christiandomesticdiscipline which deals mostly with spanking. I find I want to be spanked by my Master, my future husband! This is amazing for me and shows how much I've healed these past months since I have been living with Master's parents.
We will be getting married soon. I want his last name. I want his ownership in every form and way. I want to be completely his. He has known for some time that he is a dominant type, very protective, but he has never had a "pet" or submissive before. He knows a little more about it than I know. We want to further our education and make friends who are also into the same lifestyle as us. We don't mind if you have differences in ways of doing things or beliefs or likes and dislikes. Our differences make us special. We wish to attend events in Portland, OR and find clubs that we can go to there. That will be our home once we are married. Right now, I live in Yakima, WA and he lives in Portland, OR. I visit him about once a month. We are looking forward to and are excited about our new life together.
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