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I want to eventually experience a week of total submission to a maledom, within certain limits, involving erotic humiliation including cross-dressing and display to others, possibly even in public if done carefully, moderate discipline, sexual servitude, and some corollary domestic servitude, in the context of "training" me for the role. What I want to explore is the feelings created by being the (obviously simulated) sex object of a male partner who will use me for his own gratification and to meet his various (mostly sexual) needs, but has no significant interest in me, my feelings, or my pleasure. Building up to that, I would anticipate a series of encounters, starting with a much more limited scope: the first time, I anticipate limiting the encounter to probably an hour or so including some exploratory humiliation, learning how to sexually touch a male partner (I've never done that before), possibly cross-dressing, and ending with a handjob for my master. If it goes well, I would hope for a series of sessions of gradually increasing time and intensity, working towards my ultimate goal of having that one week of total submission.