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SpankMuhButt -> Feeling off....... (6/7/2006 12:07:04 PM)
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Ok here is the situation, I have been seeing my Dom since Feb. and things are going very well.....Monday we had the day planned, but we were meeting somewhere different and I got stuck in traffic so by the time I got there i was already a bit shaken ( i dont travel well....i hate getting lost or going some place new) Anyway we played and it was incrediable....a tad different then normal. Then we cuddled for a bit but I left earlier then I may have if we had met in our normal place...I had to be home for my son and was really scared I'd hit traffic going home. Anyway later that day I called him and he didnt return my call (ok no biggie...we both have lives) later on I text him that i was sorry I had to leave earlier then normal and I hope he understood why, he responds with of course i understand....i text him back are you ok? he says yes thank you, why? i said ummm then why didnt you return my call....he says he didnt get it....ok again no biggie....my bitch side just said ummm ok....no response after that! Anyway all day yesterday I am remembering how awesome the play had been but yet mentally i felt off....further from him then i should have. So I didnt hear from him all day and i didnt try to call, but i sent him a message on here telling him how i felt, how play was awesome but why am i feeling so off, like something was wrong, that i did something that made him unhappy...blah blah...........after a few hours i unsent it. I havent been feeling well, maybe im just being emotional i felt if anything I can just tell him how i felt next time we are together........needless to say didnt know that if you unsend an email here the other person knows about it anyway lol. how stupid is that? So i get a call first thing this morning but i was busy so all day im saying damn it now im gonna have to tell him what was in the email even though i dont wanna do that on the phone. So i finally call him back and wait for the question, i so knew it was comming. Anyway I kinda beat around the bush and he asked me if the email was mushy or mean...told him alittle of both....(i dont do mushy well either lol) so he said why and as hes pulling teeth i finally tell him how i had that off feeling.....so after he just oks, me here and there, hears me out.......he tells me he cares about me and how much he likes me.........GRRRRRRRR i love and hate new relationships, theres always the butterfly feelings but your not at the love you stage so reading someone is so hard.........i actually dont know what the point of this post was other then getting it off my chest.....I honestly know he cares about me but yet why did i get such an off feeling about him not calling me? Do i sound certifiable?Jealous maybe...also not my style so not sure why it would be that) lol godd this accident and me being sore and drugged up is or is it PMS making me a crazy woman? ok so i rambled....if anyone has any insight or if you all just want to tell me im nuts i'm ready for it lol.
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