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stellauk -> RE: Money or my word? (6/22/2012 10:36:59 AM)
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Life is all about choices, decisions and consequences.
For me money doesn't come into it (it's a transient thing, easy come, easy go) and I can't help but wonder whether the OP has confused 'his word' with pride.
I'm 46 and still coping with stuff from my parents and my childhood. It all takes place in a small tiny space inside my head. They are dead, forgiven, my family never really wanted me and today they are just as important to me as strangers who pass me in the street.
But I have a family. When I was three my godparents were leaving Glasgow for a new life in Canada and they wanted to take me with them. Mother backed out at the last minute.
One day in the future a plane will touch down in Toronto from London, and I will be on it. However you have to live in the here and now - not the past, not the future - and so today I go through life with my family in Canada, just as if I was adopted all those years ago in Glasgow.
Sure, I am dirt poor, never took a penny from the family who didn't want me. My family in Canada are wealthy. Finding the resources for Canada is part of the journey for me, the process, the adventure.
However if things ever took an unexpected turn, and death came upon me before I ever made it to Canada, it would be okay. I could let go and die with peace and dignity.
I know that today because this is how I live, being in a position to greet death like an old friend knowing that I have done what I could in life and relaxed enough to savour the last few moments of life and the journey ahead.
I don't have time to live in the past. I make mistakes, so do other people. But what is a mistake? To me it's an opportunity to learn or put things right. I don't have time to live in the future. Not even if I live another 46 years.
I like simplicity in life, and to have as much time as possible to find happiness in the present day. All what is important is that the people who matter to me know that they matter, and those who have hurt me know that it doesn't matter. It's gone, history.
However to find peace with other people you have to be at peace with yourself.
And this is the only thing which is important in life.
This much I pray that the OP finds for himself, whatever he decides.
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