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hardrawkin -> My sorry past! (6/30/2012 1:31:19 PM)
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Hi all. I wont waste any time pussyfooting. I am a lifelong deviant. I was abused as a boy of 6 by a so called child guidance "Professional;"My sexuallity was a problem up to my early thirties and I struggled with gay impulses. My hetro experiences were largely unsatisfactory and my only real satisfactions came from fetish and kink. My first straight "Affair" rather hit me like a bullet. She was 10 years my junior, petite, demure and delightful.
It inevitably ended too soon and I was almost suicidal. For a very long time, I resorted to Prostitutes, and I found a girl who was into moderate bondage.Strangely enough, we develpoed a very strong relationship built on trust and discretion.
She was a lot younger than me, and a recovering addict.It is an awful paradox, but I kind of loved that girl.Our love making was torrid, urgent and so so satisfying.It is difficult to admit but now I suffer mind numbing sexual frustration and loneliness. I do not want to go back to hunting for prostitutes. I just want to find a girl for mutual fun. I really enjoy Bondage and restraint, and I want to meet a sub or a Masochist. I am not the least interested in the slave/master scene, in fact as soon as I see the "Owned by, ridden by, trained by" Tosh, I move on! I am 6 feet tall, quite beefy, well endowed and pretty fit. I am 62 yrs old. I have quite a whicked sense of humour and I love taking the piss.
I take BDSM seriously enough, but I find myself blessedly relieved after a session and I can relax and have a good laugh! Hardrawkin
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