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fixthecat -> Newbe, with a lot of big eyed curiosity. (7/19/2012 11:46:03 AM)
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I have only little experience of BDSM, but my fantasies are advanced - too advanced maybe:-)
I´m not stuck in any ideas of what I like or not, with the exception of "shit". Open to all dirty suggestions in any role.
I have modelled in a porno film and I liked to be filmed. Shy and exibitionist is explosives for me, when I go to nudist beach. I enjoy the gay men peaking, looking and walking close past me. I pretend not to notice and try posing as sexy I can while sunbading;-). This doesn´t mean I´m gay or even bs. Have tried sex with men and found that I prefer women, but men isn´t out of the question.
A man led me in on this quest. I had never had sex with a man or close, but I agreed to pose naked for him taking pics. It did occur to me that he could have more in mind, but he was really old and harmless if I didn´t agree. He actually took a whole lot of pics, and gave me drinks "to relax" more. Which I did. I was arroused by being nude in front of him, but felt natural and in control. When he asked if I would trust him to tie me up Í never hesitated. Being tied up is my oldest sex dream, naked, helpless and exposed.
He took a few pics and said he wanted some with erection now. "I know you can´t yourself, If you don´t mind I will help you".
He certainly did, to the extent I didn´t know was possible. The orgasm I had was ten times stronger than I ever experienced! It was stronger and lasted much to long to be close to normal. I was out of control totally like never before, making uncontrolable sounds, very briefly I became unconcious.
Think I can learn more in this area, try to let others have that experience I had. The fact that he was a man is maybe something that someway contributed. I felt shame in the beginning, disturbed, but maybe it was a spice? When it came to a certain point and it did, since I couldn´t resist, I couldn´t care less.
Could write much more but who cares!
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