Sirandlittle1 -> RE: Training (6/10/2006 8:02:10 PM)
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ORIGINAL: cuddleheart50 I keep getting mail from Doms asking me if I have ever been trained. Am I supposed to be trained? Trained for what? I just don't get it, would someone explain this "training" I'm supposed to be getting. I had wondered at this question. I had baulked that this was asked of me. I was insulted by it. But ive learnt so much from him, in the 2 yrs we have been together. I have developed so much in 2 yrs. Words like these, used to perplex me? and other such phrases like 'owned' and 'you belong to me'. as in i own you. I could appreciate, belonging with someone, but not 'to'. And now i get it. I get what those phrases mean to us. Not others necessarily, but to us. I have grown around to this way of thinking. I know what he likes, doesnt like, how to please him, goad him out of a bad mood. And when i get things right, i please him. He always rewards my efforts to please him. And reinforces my need to be in this happy space. Therefor, id say, for the last two years, ive been 'trained'. Trained, encouraged, moulded, brainwashed, cajoled, seduced. They are all words. And they all have relevance. Even the ones that make us a little outside the comfort zone. That's part of my submission. I am owned, i do belong to him. Wholeheartedly. As he does me. He is as much mine, as i His. He is training me, to be able to anticipate, and pander to him in as many ways as i can learn. Lucky bugger. But i would not do these things, without vast profit to myself. And the 'wages' for being trained and showing improvement, are pretty high. little1
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