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samdarella -> Despite the warning! (9/22/2012 7:42:43 PM)
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Last Tuesday September 18th i gave up my free will and became the property of ResidentSadist. We met here on CM. We got to know each other by messages, on the forums, on the phone and finally in real life. What I thought would be a good friendship has become so much more. What follows is probably long winded contains TMI for many. Here's a good place to stop reading if you're one of those. But Master likes when I write so I am telling about my journey from the beginning to now.
I, like many others, loved the humor in His profile. So I wrote to Him. What could it hurt? He was busy with a work project and had some things in His house to get in order. So we just said hi back and forth for awhile. He was very intelligent and really funny. I thought maybe I had found a friend. The more I got to know of Him the more I thought we would just be friends. He seemed too good to be true. It took awhile for us to meet. A few times I thought He might be like others and never really meaning to meet. Yet He was unlike any other I had talked to. His phone voice made me melt. We talked about everything. It was weeks before anything sexual was even mentioned. I was first turned on my his intelligence and His worldly experience. Then omfg His kinks made me drool. I came to the sound of His voice before I ever laid eyes on Him. Finally the day came for me to go meet Him. I set up my safety calls but I went to His house to meet Him. I know that's a bad idea but i was confidant i could handle the situation if needed. Our first date was to be vanilla. Get to know each other as friends. We met. We looked in each others eyes for about 20 seconds. He said "hi baby" and I smiled. Within a minute He had me up against the garage door, hands above my head, tongue down my throat and fingers inside me. I melted. It was so wrong and felt so right. It felt like home. After awhile we cleaned me up. I was bleeding. I was in love although i told myself it was lust. We went to lunch and celebrated. Servers that weren't ours were coming over to hang out we were having such a good time. We became great friends that were totally in lust with each other. We were going to enjoy what we had while it lasted. Well the first date lasted 3 and a half days. That was our vanilla date.
The next week we had a date where we would explore some bdsm to see if we matched. I only glimpsed His inner beast as I hung bleeding from His cross. He held back because He was taught long ago not to mark what wasnt His. I cried. Not from pain. I love pain. It often makes me laugh. Pain makes me orgasm. Pain might make me scream. Rarely does pain make me cry. I cried from the intensity of the connection. I had never felt this before. Strangely I wasn't embarrassed by my tears. My tears turned Him on. They brought us closer. That date lasted 5 days.
The next week our date was to introduce some M/s into the mix. We were really going to explore new territory for me. Master owned His first slave when He was a teen. That was 40 years ago. I've had some training but have never been owned. Wasn't even sure I was a slave. I knew I was submissive. It's easy to submit my body. Could I give Him my heart and soul? I hoped so. But He liked me enough so that even if I couldn't we would still have a D/s relationship. I learned some of His protocols. I sat on the floor to eat dinner. I slept chained. I served Him breakfast in bed. The actions were all things I had done before. The mindset was different. I wasn't doing it because it was fun and made me cum. Although it did that most of the time. I did it because it pleased Master. I did it to show my love and respect. I did them because already I couldn't imagine not obeying His wishes. I cried again. I got a glimpse of what it felt like to belong. I knew now this is what I needed. What I had been craving but really didn't think I would find the One I could give myself so completely to. I don't trust easily. This really took a leap of faith on my part. It took strength and it took courage. I was scared. I was about to give this man the ability to hurt me like no other. No bruises. No cuts. But the possibility of pain that cut to my core. We spent more time talking than fucking. And we fuck alot. Besides my daily spankings there wasn't much bdsm. We read books together which opened lines of discussion. I told Master my deepest dirtiest secrets. We laughed at how warped we both are. This third date lasted 4 and a half days. And was our last. We went to the next level. I started training as slave to ResidentSadist.
Real life interfered so much of the time since then. But it showed me what a wonderful Master He is. I was warned He was using me. I considered the source and based my decisions on the Kalon that I saw and felt. He helped me take care of problems. I've had others say I will help you do this or that. But it's always bullshit. Master got dirty and helped me clean out the trailer I inherited so I could get rid of it. He made me laugh when I cried from frustration. When I felt like He has to be ready to give up on me. He helped me with my crazy sister. Helped me see what I was too close to see. He then drove over 6 hours total and managed to get her on a plane when she disnt have id. He stayed until that plane took off with her on it. His ex wife camped at his place for a month and a half while waiting to move up north. He was sick for a week. Business isn't developing as fast as expected. The ac died. All real life stuff. And through it all He has guided me, held my hand, kicked me in the ass, and kept me laughing. He has taught me what it's like to belong. Not just the sexy, kinky stuff. Not just the He is Master hear Him roar times. But all the time. He leads. I will follow. Sometimes I don't like the route. Sometimes the atmosphere is bliss. Most often it's mundane. But I now live to serve ResidentSadist. Master, Daddy, lover, friend.
Now we are I'm the process of combining two households. He is helping to unclutter my life. It will be hard to let go of some of the things I've had for years. But then I remember things can't bring me joy and bliss. He does. So I gladly give up the knickknacks and excess of furniture. We will be fixing up my house to sell so that we can get a bigger better house to make home. For us and for others that may come along and be added to our family. I'm not sure where this house will be. But the girl that was unwilling to relocate is going to follow Master.
Thank you CollarMe for helping bring us together.
Over the two years I've been on the site I've made more than one good friend. Real people. They are here. You just have to be open to meeting them. Not every date will be a relationship. Not every relationship will last. But you can wind up wih some great friends and the Master you always dreamed of.
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