AAkasha -> RE: Seriously. Lack of sleep. It makes me femdom nuts - you? (10/3/2012 2:51:42 PM)
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ORIGINAL: PeonForHer Yep. I get extra-horny not just when I'm tired, but when I'm ill, too. If I'm both tired *and* ill, my mind can be a riot of fantasies - usually of being very ravaged and very abused. God knows why that makes any sense. Is there a biologist in the house? The ill thing, yes, me also. Not full on "sick" but when I get a very mild sore throat or what feels like a cold coming on but never does, that's when I have it bad - I call it "the femdom flu" - but I always thought it was a chicken-and-egg thing with the "lack of sleep" -- ie, just feeling "run down." So I don't know if it's a cause and effect thing. And LP yes, my partner lives here with me and is available full time. It's not really about what I want/get/need, it's more about how the urges manifest in a very distracting way. Like they roll around in my head when I go to sleep and they don't shut off. Like I get sucked into watching endless videos on the Internet because I can't stop. It's like a fascination that is usually "mildly compelling" becomes totally fascinating and highly distracting. As for "getting it out of my system" it's not so much a kind of "just do it" thing, it usually ends up manifesting in a single idea of something new, or the desire to plan, or taking one of the re-occurring themes in my head and translating it into something real. I'm not complaining at all. On a side note, what I did track down in this latest fixation, thanks to my current fascination with michael hall's portrayal of Dexter and the recent premiere, was that he did some really edgy stuff in an episode in season 4 (I think) of Six Feet Under (episode has something do with the Dog in the title) where he's abducted by a hitchhiker. I'd only gotten to season 2 so I had not seen it yet. I read that it was controversial because of how horrific it was (and it was, I will admit) but included bondage, desperation, begging, some tears, forced drug use, and forced fellatio on a gun barrel. I find all of this highly offensive in a real life setting of course, but the fact that an actor endured this for his craft and did a damn good job at it (hell, it made ME wet) put me on a different planet for a while. In a normal, non sleep deprived mood, I don't think I would have gone that nuts to seek that out and then enjoy it to that level. It's good stuff for those that like homoerotic edgeplay if you can get past the fact that it's traumatic and sick. Akasha
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