slavejali -> RE: When does a a slave feel worst? Is it physical or emotional? (6/13/2006 3:40:17 PM)
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I will go with the "When I havent been pleasing" and that has a mental and emotional reaction for me. I dont see those feelings or thoughts as punishment of themselves as I simply process those things, make some adjustments within myself etc. So there is another part of me that wants an obvious interaction between Master and myself when I havent been pleasing, its almost a symbolic play-out of us both being conscious that I've screwed up in some way. Master actually doing something, intialising something because Ive fucked up, takes my control away. I dont know if I'm expressing this very well...but I'm very good at processing things, when I process, I'm in control, so in a way I'm discluding Master from his authority over me..so to balance that up and change it...Master actually intialising a repercussion for my action is very good for me...Ugh..did that make sense? So basically...untill that happens...I dont feel totally "good" about the situation.
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