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UrNatalie -> They say I'm lucky (11/19/2012 2:37:55 PM)
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I'm always nervous to brag about something like that, because I'm a bit superstitious. However, even if this relationship won't work, i will never see it as negative experience, so here it comes... my positive experience.
I registered on collar.me about 5 weeks ago. I have liked its simplicity and straight forwardness. This was my first BDSM website ever. EVER. I knew nothing about fake and real Doms, wanna be Doms, scams, dangerous personas. I was so naive and optimistic that i truly believed it would be easy to find my Dom. I talked to many guys, I was polite and thoughtful, but I knew exactly what I wanted. I had a specific criteria and priorities that I followed to make sure at the end I'm happy with mu choice. Three musts were Dom must live withing 30 minutes drive, must have experience, must be at least 6' tall.
First date was on the third day after registration. There was a very brief conversation, a few txts and plans for Sunday night. I had no safe call, I had no one to know where I was going to and with who. Stupid, I know. At least a place was public:)))Anyways, after four hours of talking we decided on Him just mentoring and protecting me, because He is poly and I'm mono. After a week of constant talking and another date we developed a very strong connection, like I never had before. We talked a lot about how to make it work, so I could feel safe and secure in poly relationship. It was very unnatural for me to be with a man who loves another woman. Normally, I'd just walk away. No fighting, no crying, and no regret. There is no point in anything for me if my beloved desires another woman. Plus I'd have a great deal of resent and disrespect toward a man as my reaction on cheating. Somehow I had to wrap it all around my head and make it all OK with real mono me. As I was working really hard on that, my dear Sir helped me to feel very special and loved. He made big sacrifices himself and did everything possible for this relationship to happen. There were times when it was too painful to know that at that point he is being pleased by someone else and I thought I couldn't take it anymore, but the thought of loosing him was and is unbearable.
Poly is still odd to me and I don't really get it. I am not in his poly family, I don't have any contact with another sub, but I'm trying really hard to make him and myself happy with what we have right now. I know people say that submission is a gift, but I know that it's actually his dominance is a gift to me, because I have a temper, I am stubborn, and I don't know simple basics of D/s relationship. Plus I am this hated by all selfish, possessive, jealous bitch that wants all Master to herself. :)
We've been back and forth with our relationship status decision, but as of right now, He is my Dom. I don't know how long it will last, I read about so many mono/poly relationship that fail miserably, and it makes me unsure of our future as D/s, but I hope this person is in my life for a very long time.
Thanks for reading,
Turtle.
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