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unownedvirgin -> New to this on so many levels I need an elevator.... (12/14/2012 12:48:15 AM)
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Hello, World.
I have had very little experience with BDSM in pretty much all the relationships I've ever been in, but never anything more than I would imagine most vanilla people have tried at one time or another. I have always wanted to explore more, but never could convince anyone I've been with to get very adventurous. They usually won't let go and allow themselves to be sadistic. I think it's usually from fear of hurting me, despite my reassurance that I want them to hurt me LOL. That is until recently. My last girlfriend dominated me above and beyond anything I ever expected (or even wanted). She hurt me and humiliated me in ways I am still kind of grossed out by, but she unleashed an animal and now I want to experience more more more or things I am ashamed to even think about, but still determined to explore this all deeper. YEAH DEEPER! lol. She dressed me up like a girl, made me up and ultimately convinced me to suck off a guy friend of hers while dressed up. On top of all that, she left me right after making me her bitch (well..her friend's bitch, I guess, actually). She said she was grossed out by being with a sissy fag and dumped me. This made no sense to me, whatsoever. Not to mention it broke my little heart. I thought we were getting serious when she pulled all this on me... In retrospect, I guess it makes a bit of sense...she got me started me into forced fem just enough to make me accept it and then want it, then took it away from me, leaving me going crazy with desire to continue serving her this way, then took it from me... OMG!!!! She's such a dirty heartless bitch in the most awesome way!!
New or not (and ashamed or not lol), I am determined that I will make someone out there a great slave. I am very obedient and very very sick in the head. I simply haven't ever sought out someone to try any of my sick thoughts in real life. That is all over with now. I am on here to do just that. I just hope this will be a good place to do that. I am also new to the whole hooking up online thing. I know that there are a lot of flakes, fakes and shit talkers on the web, so I'm not looking forward to wading through all of the ones on here, but I'm sure there are some real people on here and hopefully some real sadistic and posessive ones. It seems that there are plenty of other people who are also looking for someone to collar them and feminize them. And to those people, I say good luck and stay out of my way! I am more obedient, loyal and willing than you and I deserve an owner more than you because I will serve them better...besides I can already cook, clean, and keep a home better than all of you...I just need someone to teach me how to do it in heels! LMAO! I'm only partly kidding...
So, anyway... I'm beginning to babble endlessly and senselessly, so I'll shut up and go back to reading other posts, getting to know the community I just joined a bit better..
Feel free to reply to this or contact me if you'd like to talk more, with me. Hope to find some like minded people, if nothing else...
Good Morning, World.
Stephen
P.S. I would love to hear any suggestions on a good girl name for me...
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