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myKingspet -> My new life (1/10/2013 6:54:04 PM)
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This New Year's was especially memorable for me. It was everything I hoped it to be and more.
You see, my typical New Year has historically been spent at home, alone, watching TV and working on some report or deadline for work. Being the true workaholic, career oriented, uptight professional woman that I had become.
This year was different for a couple of reasons. First and most importantly, this year my King is in my life now. He has found me and has claimed me to be His own. The sense of freedom that I feel with Him goes beyond description. Yes, I said freedom. I have always (and I do mean always) been in control and the power player in all relationships and facets in my life. Both on a personal as well as a professional level. He has set me free from the decision making, the burdens and the stresses at home. Free to be vulnerable and soft. Free to explore areas uncharted. My tasked concern and my focus is how to make Him happy, to please Him. To serve Him.
The other reason that this holiday was so refreshing is that I feel this sense of re-birth.
All of my life I have dreamt of and fantasized about relationships such as the one that my King has now given to me. When things first began with Him, it was games we played in the bedroom. He told me recently that this is not simply a game. Rather my life from this point forward if I so desire. I thought about that for quite a while. But when the "light bulb came on" it was as refreshing as a satisfying glass of water on a hot day. Finally, my thirst is being quenched. I accept willingly and enthusiastically that I belong to my King. In and out of the bedroom. All of me. I exist to please and satisfy Him. I am His pet. It truly was a much needed revelation.
One of my assignments is to write a "journal" and record my journey through this transformation. I want to learn from my King's teachings and trainings and be the best woman that I can be for Him. I am truly devoted to Him, to us.
I will post my thoughts periodically as I can, I am anticipating some remarkable experiences to share. This is, for the most part, the only avenue that I have to “speak” about these types of things as I do not share a comfort level with my friends and associates to that extent.
Thanks for reading.
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