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HisPet21 -> RE: Catharsis!!!? (3/14/2013 8:46:01 PM)
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For me, catharsis is the release of pent up energy associated with stress, or anxiety, or anger. I'm compelled to call them "negative" emotions, but that's not an entirely accurate sentiment, because having these emotions (when warranted) is part of being happy, healthy, and sane. Never-the-less, finding a way to release this pent up energy and come to terms with the associated incidents is equally important. The achievement of catharsis can take may forms. I often times write or draw to release angsty emotions, so that I can return to reality and face my problems. But more often than not, I also need some kind of intense, physical release. Usually, that means exercise, and lots of it. During one particularly stressful period in my life, I remember one week when I went out to jog for, literally, 3-4 hours each fucking day. It was ridiculous. But exhaustion is a good way to achieve internal calm, and jogging gives you the solitude and head space needed for contemplation.
Since I use physical activity as a means of achieving catharsis, I don't doubt that someday, resistance play or pain play could serve a cathartic function. In fact, I am pretty damn sure it could. But right now, that doesn't seem to be a reasonable route for me. The bf and I are young, inexperienced, stupid, and have no idea what we are doing half of the time. To use BDSM play now, as a cathartic outlet, would seem irresponsible to me. Plus, I don't think I'd feel comfortable letting raw emotion loose in front of him, as I am a largely introverted and private person. I prefer to handle my emotional issues myself and while I am getting better at letting the people I love in (especially the bf, who insists on it, much to my dismay at times), I am nowhere near the point where I would feel comfortable intentionally having a "catharsis moment" in front of someone. If it happens, it happens. But I fucking hate crying in front of people. It's, like, in the top three things I hate to do around people, right next to accidentally sharting (we've all done it, I'm sure). Right now, I could just not allow someone to tie me up and push me semi-unwillingly toward a cathartic moment. You could try, but I wouldn't allow myself to get into the right head space, and pushing me there would be a huge pain in the ass.
Just some thoughts.
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