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Greta75 -> RE: who are you in love with? (6/4/2013 12:20:35 AM)
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I was just pondering about my relationship with my x-dom. I thought he was kind and funny when I first met him, our conversations were like..., I don't know, I get his humour and he gets mine, we just click. It's an amazing feeling, really like heart soaring out of your chests. And then on to the bdsm play, like wowowowow, seriously..., he told me I got my safe words that I can use when I feel uncomfortable to navigate the play, but his not gonna tell me what his gonna do. And he didn't ask me at all what I wanted. And it felt like he pried open my mind, and dissect it and did EVERYTHING I ever wanted in a perfect game play.
It felt so perfect in the beginning, I was inlove quick.
It fell apart later though, mainly due to him wanting to push me to go further with him in the bdsm umbrella and I was refusing because I was not comfortable. And of course, that's when friction starts.
I begin to love more when his vanilla mode than dom mode, and often told him to snap out of dom mode now, I need my vanilla man.
Still wish things didn't go south, but he had needs I could not fulfill, and he wasn't able to convince me to go into it anyway.
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