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MJTV -> Young and in need =/. (6/12/2013 2:31:46 AM)
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I guess I'll go ahead and introduce myself:
Basically, starting as a little kid, I knew I was gay and I knew I always had a fetish for feet; licking, sniffing, ect ect. I also knew I only liked guys who had permenantly clean feet, no calouses, no stink, no stubby toes - no matter which way I diced it, I always realized that the only guys who truly had the type of feet I enjoy were small, slender, clean guys like me, and this generally turned into being attracted to stylish, fit, clean guys. As time went on though, I stayed fit and clean, but facially, I didn't become the best looking guy ever, by a long shot, and over time, I realized I was only attracted to guys who always seemed to look better than me (because all the guys sort of in my 'zone' facially just always had horrible feet, the scientific correlation between certain facial features and just how pleasant someone's feet are is surprisingly always accurate, if you really study it.)
As I met a friend who I fell in love with as a teen, my heart really went out to him because from head to toe (not a figure of speech for me) he was the most perfect guy I ever have seen, and 8 years later (and still sort of friends with him), I still think so, and have never met anyone else I'm as attracted to physically. This guy from the start, though, was very dominant personality wise, and over these many years, our somewhat odd relationship (we're not together, and he wont' even admit he likes guys, but we do sort of flirt) has turned into a pretty extreme financial domination relationship, where I literally have paid for anything he wants in exchange for getting to be around him; for better or worse, we don't get along otherwise. This relationship has left me dry though, because he recently sort of "broke up" with me, for lack of a better term, and now I don't see him much.
And over the years, I've realized that a lot of my fantasies have started to involve spanking, whipping, talking down to me, becoming a house slave (for him or a for guy as good as him in my eyes), a financial slave, and generally just having a dominant guy around who truly is as attractive as he acts. I've never been one for fantasy BDSM; in my eyes, I can't look at someone who's obviously not attractive to society as a whole and believe they're really "fit" to be a dominant man (and if a guy isn't naturally just narcissistic, they're acting tends to suck, I've seen some guys pretend to be dominant and either you really do have that mean streak or you don't, or you gotta be a damn good actor.) I've always wanted my guy to be the real deal, and I just don't feel that spark otherwise.
Thing is, I'm 22, and at this age, it's tough finding a gay dominant male like that. I have all the best dating apps and been to all the websites, and the closest you really come to finding something like that is guys who are a part of thug culture and things like that, but for those guys, it's still not just based on the dominance; every person my age seems to still base attraction on pure looks, no matter who they are; what's worse, it seems like the more attractive the guy is, the less of a freak he is. It's very tough, and I never seem to have any luck with the guys I always try to talk to. I just don't know what to do, I'm very lonely and it's getting almost impossible for me to have a sexual drive. I feel alone, I really do. The biggest curse is I'm just not into bear culture at all; the fact that a foot fetish really drives me tends to seperate me from anything close to any sort of burly man; the fact is, if you're looking for clean, sexy feet, those type of men aren't your guys lol.
Personally, I just wish I never had developed a feet fetish, because %100 of my psychological department for sex is based entirely around that and the preferences I've had with that and the guys I've met because of that. But too late. I just need advice on what to do or how to meet more people like me; is there really any good apps or websites out there that have a lot of youths on there? What in the world do I do? How in the world will I ever find someone for me when the only guys I'm attracted to are too busy being normal straight dudes? My favorite gay dating app is Grindr (which has a billion members, it's one of the best ones) but %95 of the guys on there are still just art-mueseum queers (no offense to anyone, I have a little part of that personality in me too) and the other folks just seem so far from freaky that I doubt any of them would even slap you on the booty. It's frustrating! How in the world do I find a early-to-mid 20's guy who truly wants a guy to serve him? [>:]
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