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the tortures i endure - 12/9/2013 7:43:31 PM   
samdarella


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Status: offline 		When i first got into the lifestyle a little over 3 years ago i had no idea what i was or where i fit in. My very first sadist that ever messaged me I replied "No thank you Sir, I am afraid of sadists. I am afraid of pain." But after many messages on fetlife, conversations on yahoo and the telephone i thought wtf won't hurt to meet in public. He was a kind man and i trusted him. So we played. He was the first to spank me to orgasm, the first to flog me, but with very fluffy floggers. Pigskin, deerskin. I loved it and wanted more. I made it very clear time and again that we were just playing and it was a top/bottom thing and not d/s. I did not feel submissive to him. He wasn't nearly dominant enough to control me. I played with others and found i needed more and more pain. I still would visit my friend once a week. And as nice as he was, he was a sadist. The fucker would tie me up and then do NOTHING. I outgrew that. I was in it for the physical sensations, not ready for the mental aspects. I could serve but not submit.

Fast forward 2 years. I was a major pain slut that needed a fix on a regular basis. There was a couple that I had been visiting every week that fulfilled that need, but also taught me how to serve and submit. They taught me how to trust. They helped me open my mind and my heart. Both were sadists and i loved them very much. Had so many new experiences. But no sex. That couldn't work for a slut like me.

Then I met Master. It was love and lust as first sight. He has a collection of evil implements and the mind to use them. I finally found the man i could completely submit to. He collared me and a year later married me. You have read the love story on other posts. So anyway, He owns me, i must endure every torture He forces upon me. Sometimes its not easy. Like tonight, i was made to watch Lady Gaga videos. Damn sadists. Yes its worth it. But really wasn't what i had imagined life would be like. Reality vs fantasy.

I know i am not His fantasy slave. I can aspire but will never achieve it. But i guess i am good enough because He married me.

How does your reality differ from your fantasy?



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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/9/2013 9:05:19 PM   
njlauren


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Status: offline 		If he really wants to torture you, he should make you listen to modern classical music aka 12 tone music.....only a real sadist would do that!

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/9/2013 9:06:34 PM   
MalcolmNathaniel


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Status: offline 		Lady Gaga videos?! And I thought I was a sadist!

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/9/2013 9:11:58 PM   
MistressDarkArt


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ORIGINAL: njlauren

If he really wants to torture you, he should make you listen to modern classical music aka 12 tone music.....only a real sadist would do that!


Or quarter-tone music prevalent in Arabic compositions. These are harder than f*ck to play on any gawd-danged instrument and a bitch to my Western-trained ear.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/9/2013 11:46:30 PM   
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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 1:00:33 AM   
samdarella


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Status: offline 		Pleaae don't give Him any ideas.

My reward for being a good girl last night: I wake to a knife at my throat. Big smiles.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 1:27:50 AM   
ResidentSadist


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Status: offline 		In the past she survived Aphex Twin - Rubber Johnny and ALL the other Chris Cunningham videos. She made it through Bjork - Mutual Core and when I turned her on to Loreena Mckennitt she loved it. In fact, we spent an entire evening and late into the wee hours of the morning listening to several Gaelic folk music groups but she choked on the avaunt guard Fever Ray 'When I Grow Up'.

Now, after an entire year of artistic and unusual music, I played her the first piece of mainstream music, some Lady Gaga, and she come here crying of torture. Go figure!



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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 3:58:42 AM   
kiwisub12


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Status: offline 		I knew a cop who played bagpipe music for prisoners in his police car - if they pissed him off. He was MEAN!



and I love folk music from the British Isles, especially Steel Eye Span - a bit of rock to the folk. But making people listen to bagpipes in a car is cruel and unusual. Especially in America.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 9:47:32 AM   
MasterCaneman


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Status: offline 		I kind of like bagpipe music. Now if he played Muzak in there...the soundtrack to Hell is "The Girl From Ipanema" Da,dada, da, da,dadadada, Da, dada, da, da, dadadaaaa... You get the picture.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 9:57:15 AM   
Moonlightmaddnes


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Status: offline 		Thank you for sharing. My husband and myself differ on favorite music as well. He loves The Grateful Dead. I think it is boring. Then he loves Rush, they play the same song over and over again on the radio. He has the same problem with Def Leppard.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 9:59:51 AM   
myotherself


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Master is a sadist. When there's football (soccer) on the tv he sits glued to the screen, while I find it totally boring.

I try to read a book while he's watching the footie, and instead of letting me just float away on my sea of fluffy fiction, he insists on giving a running commentary on the game.

Every goal. Every missed kick. Every player that messes up or does well. Every raindrop that falls on the pitch. Every time the referee falls over. Every. Fucking. Detail.

I told him I don't care. I mean, I don't care to the point that if every footballer in the world was on a huge bus that fell into a bottomless ravine, I'd probably not even be able to raise a slight sigh of sympathy.

I HATE FOOTBALL!!!!!!

But the evil bastard who owns me won't let me go sit in another room while the game is on

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 10:48:35 AM   
Spiritedsub2


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Status: offline 		I am in awe that 3 years ago you were vanilla and afraid of pain, and 3 years later you are Mrs. ResidentSadist! You don't let any moss grow under your feet

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 10:52:56 AM   
TNDommeK


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Status: offline 		If you ever wanna punish her...use justin beiber.
Oh gosh or Taylor swift.
I would cut my wrist!!

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 11:44:19 AM   
Moonlightmaddnes


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ORIGINAL: Spiritedsub2

I am in awe that 3 years ago you were vanilla and afraid of pain, and 3 years later you are Mrs. ResidentSadist! You don't let any moss grow under your feet



See I had no idea you two were together much less married, see how much I pay attention. I live in my head a lot and unaware of what is going on around me.

My husband and I met in August of 1991 and married in Nov. of 91.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 11:53:45 AM   
SoulAlloy


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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 12:18:36 PM   
SeekingTrinity


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Status: offline 		Lady GaGa? I've got an even better one you can use to auditorily torture slaves. Only problem is that you end up torturing yourself in the process. So if you can take a little pain with the pleasure you get from causing others, might I suggest...

Rebecca Black - Friday (official video)

And

Rebecca Black - Saturday

Warning: this shitastic crap can (and does) induce ear bleeding. Consider yourself warned and use at your own risk

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 12:26:37 PM   
MistressDarkArt


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ORIGINAL: MasterCaneman

the soundtrack to Hell is "The Girl From Ipanema" Da,dada, da, da,dadadada, Da, dada, da, da, dadadaaaa... You get the picture.


Excuse me, MC, I happen to ROCK that tune when I play it! Of course, I don't do Muzak, I'm an old-school jazz musician.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 12:47:52 PM   
Spiritedsub2


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ORIGINAL: MistressDarkArt

quote:

ORIGINAL: MasterCaneman

the soundtrack to Hell is "The Girl From Ipanema" Da,dada, da, da,dadadada, Da, dada, da, da, dadadaaaa... You get the picture.


Excuse me, MC, I happen to ROCK that tune when I play it! Of course, I don't do Muzak, I'm an old-school jazz musician.

You guys should hear Ottmar Liebert rock that tune.
Girl From Ipanema

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 1:17:20 PM   
eulero83


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quote:

ORIGINAL: myotherself

~FR~

Master is a sadist. When there's football (soccer) on the tv he sits glued to the screen, while I find it totally boring.

I try to read a book while he's watching the footie, and instead of letting me just float away on my sea of fluffy fiction, he insists on giving a running commentary on the game.

Every goal. Every missed kick. Every player that messes up or does well. Every raindrop that falls on the pitch. Every time the referee falls over. Every. Fucking. Detail.

I told him I don't care. I mean, I don't care to the point that if every footballer in the world was on a huge bus that fell into a bottomless ravine, I'd probably not even be able to raise a slight sigh of sympathy.

I HATE FOOTBALL!!!!!!

But the evil bastard who owns me won't let me go sit in another room while the game is on


At least you suffer this torture by your master's hand, I get stuck too much times with people that I just met and they start talking about football as being an italian male they suppose it's my favourite small talk topic and being them uneducated italian males it's the only subject they know.

P.S. it's not you it's football that's as boring as watching 22 person missing the goal for 90 minutes.

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RE: the tortures i endure - 12/10/2013 4:24:13 PM   
Kana


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Like tonight, i was made to watch Lady Gaga videos.

I've threatened her with Gilligan island marathons.I've made her sit through multiple showing of some lame ass franchise she despises (Rambo maybe) while I tortured her tits through every commercial break (Left her begging for Sly to return,which hurt her worse than maybe anything else), but never ever in a billion years would I ever make her listen to Lady Gaga.
That line man, you know, the one you don't cross-yeah, playing Lady Gaga is so far over that line that it's just a dot on the horizon.
You're a cruel cruel man RS-I tip my hat to you.

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