AthenaSurrenders
Posts: 3582
Joined: 3/15/2012 Status: offline
|
Go out and join your local munches. Meet people in the flesh. Be friendly and helpful. Word will get out what a cool/nice/fun person you are. People will come to trust you. Your best qualities will shine through more easily than they do online, because online there are thousands of male subs so it's hard to even be noticed. Understand that no one is going to take you by force or 'with no regard to self respect' until they get to know you, like you, and care about you. This is because: 1) It's dangerous - if you decide you don't like it you could go to the police, most women don't want to be actual abusers and rapists, and until they trust you they don't know for sure how well you've thought this through. Not to mention, for all they know you might harm them when you're along together and 2) There are lots of people who don't need to be forced, who are happy to cooperate - so they don't need to take that risk. Being forced or manhandled are common fantasies and you can find someone to do it with you, but you need to be realistic. It's going to be done within the context of a consensual and mutually fulfilling relationship. She doesn't care about your kink until she cares about you. As for no one being interested in you: What are you doing about that? You sound like you need to work on your self esteem. You don't look ugly to me (not a fan of facial hair, but that's just personal choice) but when someone thinks they are ugly, they project a sort of self-pity which IS unattractive. 32 doesn't seem too young, unless you are only interested in much older women who want to date their own age? Too willing isn't generally a problem either, as long as it's just 'willing' and not 'pushy'. Why are you intimidating? What is it about your behaviour that intimidates people? Fix that. Make yourself appealing by having lots of vanilla interests and making lots of friends. That's really all it takes. Alternatively, if you just want to experience being forced to do something, you could always hire a pro. Just bear in mind that she will have her own limits on what she will and won't do with clients since there are liability issues for her if it goes wrong.
_____________________________
Being your slave, what should I do but tend Upon the hours and times of your desire?
|