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ORIGINAL: ClassA

This aint a sympathy post. This is a frustrated post and just expressing myself.

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Well I wouldnt mind it if he messed around with other girls. The truth is Id really be ok with it, but he lies about it and its driving me insane. I try and let go basically I feel that if we break up hes going to sleep with other women and at least when were "together" I get to spend time with him the most and sleep with him on a regular basis.

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ORIGINAL: ClassA

td;lr Nothing special to see here. Just going through the same old thing with this guy over a year now. Cheater.

The sex is the best sex of my life. Ive had sex with roughly 500 guys and sex with this one man isnt like any other man. Its so fucking good that almost expect him to cheat because how could someone that can do that be 100% in love with 1 girl?

Well I wouldnt mind it if he messed around with other girls. The truth is Id really be ok with it, but he lies about it and its driving me insane. I try and let go basically I feel that if we break up hes going to sleep with other women and at least when were "together" I get to spend time with him the most and sleep with him on a regular basis.

But the past year his lies have consumed my thoughts. Ruined my school last semester. Caused me to check into the hospital for suicide. Wont take me out on a date. I even have to go to therapy now. Although I should have been in therapy all these years because I had very many traumatic events that occurred in my younger life.

So I could dump him, move on, sleep around with random guys again (which is exactly what I would do no matter what) until I find someone else who will have some other dysfunctional thing about them that I cant bare to imagine living my life without, and it could be worse. Ive dated guys who have hit me, tried to kill, had major skizo.

I wouldnt mind all sex with guys but sex with one guy is so much more satisfying to me. I was celibate for several years, at different times, and mostly a year at a time. Im also transgender and passable and the sexual identity practically causes me to go into my room and swallow all my pills thinking about that alone these days more than ever. Now approaching 30y I feel like Ive lost the last 10 years and sometimes I feel this is a common age to live a fulfilling life so I dont see myself getting to a better place by 40y and this shit is bullshit.

This aint a sympathy post. This is a frustrated post and just expressing myself. Looking around for a community and not finding anything. Bored so getting back onto Collarme. Why not. I feel like giving up but there isnt anything to give. I have a great apartment, income, family. The prejudice I deal with on a daily basis is enough to make anyone choke. So Im dont ranting here. The bf thing has its good side and when its good it seems none of the issues outside of the relationship matter as much, but as soon as theyre bad (which is like a bi-weekly schedule) its like their multiplied by 100's

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ORIGINAL: DarkSteven

Okay, folks. First off, she used to be a hooker. That would go a way toward explaining the 500 men.

Second, she's an MtF, who had a lot of trouble coming to grips with her need to transition.

Now then... ClassA, you're a very pretty girl who can pass easily. You're in a relationship with a liar. And because he's a cheater, you'll never have all of him.

You sound very sweet and very submissive. The guy that you're with now is good for sex only. And, yeah, he's good at it, but sex without the relationship is like dessert without the main course. It tastes great but it won't nourish you.

Go for something better.

Good luck, and have fun along the way!