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subacceptance -> When was a watershed moment in the lifestyle? (7/7/2006 10:04:12 PM)
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Earlier this evening I was a writing a response to MsCarolynn52 about how I ended up as a submissive or perhaps my transformation from vanilla to submissive to slave. I was thinking what was a watershed moment, a time/place when something clarified or jelled in my head, that put things in perspective, saw myself in a new light whatever.
I guess for me, it was in my mid 30s, when I met the woman that introduced my to BDSM. At the time I lived in Miami and was an avid cyclist. Consequently I shaved my legs etc. We were roommates and once she saw me shaving them joked she could do a better job, she had more experience. Ok, thats cool, so she started to shave my legs on a regular basis. But she also started to nick them too & would apply perioxide to the cut. Of course it stung like hell and she started to kiss it to make it feel better. So it was a conditioning to pain and pleasure she later told me, to guage my reaction. Well as time went, it happened more and more, and then one time looked at me and said, "Do you want the pain or pleasure, I responded the pain". Later that evening she told me she could take my body to places I'd never imagined, that to trust her, open my mind to what she was going to do. Well I had a bigger glass a wine and figured why not. She used a couple of my ties to restrain me and used a riding crop on me. Pleased with my response, she said she wasnt sure how I would react to this, she said the next night would be different. The next night was leather restraints and that pain could feel very good.
Relateded to that but prior, in the winter on cold mornings, I complained to her about the cold until my body warmed up on the ride. She suggested I wear woman's panty hose. We went shopping it was a bit awkward, however once we got home & she told me she wanted to see how I looked in them, so I tried them on for her. I remember her comment at the time, "You'll learn to love them". I thought very odd comment then. A few months later, I was told to wear panties/nylons under my suit.
Those were watershed moments.
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