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gypsyssoul -> RE: a rose by any other name.. (7/8/2006 5:32:32 PM)
quote: But were you totally devoted to the pleasures of your man? this is just me ... i seek to please in it i get pleasure ... maybe it was how i was raised i don't know i just know that every relationship i have been in i have been the same wow ... ok so i have had a few relationships this is just one of the first times i can put a name to what i seek .. am hope you find your answers :: goes back to her corner .. to watch

proudsub -> RE: a rose by any other name.. (7/8/2006 9:09:14 PM)
I love your avatar gypsy. That's exactly how i picture Maximus to look in the James Patterson books about the flying kids.

subjected2006 -> RE: a rose by any other name.. (7/9/2006 12:04:30 AM)
the reason i have been thinking about these things is that i am going through some ch ch ch changes....and i am rather ashamed of this but i believe i was really Domming my past relationships by being so subserviant. .i mean ..i always felt in control..does that make sense? and it exhausted me. it was maybe as simple as i needed to make myself irreplacable.. because the difference is that now that i am a "submissive" (named..titled ,placed) i feel truly comfy taking orders and it feels good..fills the empty so to speak. and before i knew about bdsm i was so damned driven,almost obsessive, about being perfect.and no one ever ordered me to do anything because i always did what they wanted before they even knew what it was that they wanted... .so my next question ..is how can i feel normal now by being part of this lifestyle where we are certainly not normal by popular standards? i dont get it. and could some of my need to be punished come from feeling so guilty about controlling all of my relationships like i did in the past? because i was really manipulative ,even though i was so determined to be the best lil wifey, it was not for the right reasons, was it? does this matter? now i have to wonder , am i really a submissive? or am i just trying on hats on here?

sothernnyte -> RE: a rose by any other name.. (7/9/2006 6:52:53 AM)
i've always been submissive... though i have not always been welcomed in nilla relationships to show it. luckily, with patience and self-learning, i have a relationship now that is gradually allowing me to explore more and more of myself and my level of submissiveness. so looking back, i always saw it... felt it... and now i can live it moreso than before sincerely sothern

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