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Have Come To A Decision - 5/13/2014 9:28:09 AM

BeautifulLotus

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Hi Ladies!

Just an update:

I got to thinking about this whole situation that I posted on yesterday, and have come to the decision that that I'm getting off the pot. I've been pissing too long.
I sent an email about 30minutes ago: the gist of the email being, "if I did/said something wrong, offended/slighted him in anyway, offer me the opportunity to make amends, if you're gonna let me go, tell me so I can leave..."

But in actuality, I don't care anymore. I sent it to see if he has any intention of coming clean...I doubt it very seriously.
And yes, he WILL contact me...I figure it'll be around the 18th. I say this because he said the he worked two weeks on/off. I got the "Accident in Canada" email on May 4th...that's been nine days ago...and this is what finally got me to my light bulb moment:

If the internet/cell service is soooo sketchy up there, how on earth could he send me an email on the 9th giving me "subtle commands", but can't figure out how to send me email letting me know he's okay in ALL THIS TIME?
It only takes about 30seconds to say: "Hey Babe, I'm doing okay. I miss you, very busy. TTYL." >>>Press Send<<<

And when he does respond, I'll answer him with this:

If I'm "YOURS" as you say, then you can jolly well come claim it.

In the meantime, I'm moving on.

FreedomDwarf1 was absolutely correct in that I should harden my heart. And I'm a Virgo...don't know if any of you are Virgos or know/have dealt with Virgos, but we can be pretty swift in our decision to tell someone to KICK ROCKS. And once we've figured out that we've been hoodwinked, there isn't enough sentiment in all the universe to make us stay. Emotions do not equate to logic. Logic always rules.

How did I arrive at this miraculous decision, you might ask? Well, I was asleep last night and I had a dream. In the dream, a voice whispered in my ear: "HE'S MARRIED. LET IT GO." That's it. So as Mnottertail put it: "I was his bit o' fluff on the job, the wife is the bit o' fluff at home." Damn straight!

What I will say, and I'm not making any excuses, is that he helped me. And really, I have to take some of the responsibility for this because I chose to ignore the facts. It really was like pearls falling from the lips of God...and I was swayed.
But he has helped me. I was open to trusting him. And that's a huge thing for me. And now that I've made my decision, the pain really isn't all that bad. So that tells me that I CAN trust, and that if I get hurt, it won't kill me, and it's okay to feel.
It also tells me that he really wasn't the ONE for me. This is a DONE DEAL.

So there you have it Ladies. I'll be lurking around in the meantime because I still have a lot to learn and I'll be taking my new found freedom in regards to trusting and working on myself.

I wanna thank you all again for jumping in when a novice made the rookie mistake...lol

Welp...that's it. And when I do hear from him, I'll let you know how it went...LOL

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RE: Have Come To A Decision - 5/13/2014 9:38:07 AM

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ORIGINAL: BeautifulLotus
....And now that I've made my decision, the pain really isn't all that bad. So that tells me that I CAN trust, and that if I get hurt, it won't kill me, and it's okay to feel.
It also tells me that he really wasn't the ONE for me. This is a DONE DEAL.

I am glad the community helped

Sometimes we trip over ourselves and send all sorts of mixed messages.
But, if it helped someone to make a decision for themselves, I'm glad it all helped amid the confusion.

Good luck to you!

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RE: Have Come To A Decision - 5/13/2014 9:47:01 AM

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Lotus
Im happy to hear that you came to this conclusion and seem ok with it. If we helped at all, then that's a bonus!
Glad you are here, we love new, funny and intelligent posters! Welcome to the dark side....

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RE: Have Come To A Decision - 5/13/2014 9:49:13 AM

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Well, and he can jolly well come to claim you.

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RE: Have Come To A Decision - 5/14/2014 4:21:50 AM

BeautifulLotus

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Good Morning Ladies!

Heard from him! LOL

Could one of you Ladies contact me by PM? I'd like to share the message and see how it reads to them.
And NO, I have not responded...

< Message edited by BeautifulLotus -- 5/14/2014 4:23:51 AM >

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