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Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 4:40:39 PM

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I always end up accidentally writing an entire biographical novel instead of a quick introduction so I'll try to keep this concise.

I have an IQ equivalent to Einstein's but I'm very lazy and young and distracted so i don't have the time and patience to sit down and invent the next big thing. When i'm a bit older and less distracted i will. I'm very creative and love making things from scrap. I'm a bit of a sociopath but i came to terms with that a long time ago and made drastic efforts to become a better person and learn as much about myself as possible so that i can understand myself and others. I don't like conflict. I've never been the type to stir up drama or start fights. I always always always try to understand things from multiple people's perspectives and see 'the big picture'.

I have a passion for technology, the future, and the mysteries of the universe. I believe that this physical world made of solid matter and atoms is only the tip of the iceberg. It's hard for someone to comprehend the ridiculous massiveness of the Universe, but it's even harder to comprehend that massive Universe only being the tip of the iceberg. I was once absolutely and aggressively atheist but one day life kicked my in the ass so hard it took me a whole year to get back up and during that year I went through a spiritual revolution within myself and my entire perspective on life completely changed.

I'm a "slave/pet" in the BDSM world, and i don't know why, i really don't. I get no pleasure from having traditional penis-to-vagina intercourse, i get no pleasure from knowing a beautiful girl loves me unless she wants to lock my dick in a cage and order me around like a servant. I do enjoy the love i get from a Mistress. Unlike many slaves and subs, I'm not much of a masochist. I prefer sensual Dommes, not sadistic ones. I don't like sharp pain like whips, ballbusting, and face-slapping. I prefer dull pain, controlled discomfort, and psychological domination.

I like role-playing games, first-person shooters, and strategy games. And that's not just limited to video games. I enjoy trading card games, strategic board games, and I've always wanted to play Dungeons and Dragons. It would be fun to play games with a Domme with bets on the line to make it risky and possibly rewarding, and very very interesting. Especially if said Domme had more than one slave and we could compete against each other in these games.

I've diagnosed myself as a woman trapped in a male body because i've spent years and years psychoanalyzing myself. I've gained a deep understanding of psychology because I have a very complicated radical mind, I'm trapped in my head listening to my own thoughts, and luckily i'm intelligent and open-minded enough to understand why i think, feel, and do the things i feel think and do. And from that understanding of myself i've learned a lot about society and the way other people think too.

Okay umm...that wasn't very concise but i hope you either enjoyed it or stopped reading before you got mad at me for wasting your time thank you bye <3

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 4:52:03 PM

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Are you prepared to enter a healthy Master/slave relationship with a case of self-diagnosed sociopathy? I mean...I'm not sure how many people would be open to committing to a Dominant role with someone having sociopathic tendencies.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 5:05:08 PM

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Having a very high IQ is difficult for social situations. It's like being on another planet from everyone else is how I would describe it and today's society doesn't have much options to cater to such an individual. This is somewhat of a constant so you needn't worry, hopefully your Dom can help you fine tune your skills. The fact you acknowledge your sociopathy is a start. Thinkers usually have an under-developed sensitivity chip but it means you may have to be humbled in this regard. Sociopaths tend to detach and compartmentalize so working on not doing that is also a start. Wishing you the best in life's journey.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 5:23:13 PM

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@ReinRaus That's a good question i knew would be in the back of some people's mind. To answer, yes, i've spent years learning about my own tendencies and fixing them so that i don't hurt others. Sometimes the best thing for me to do is keep to myself and keep my thoughts in my own head. I also read an article in Entrepreneur magazine the other day showing that many of the world's most successful business minds, inventors, and creative talents share sociopathic tendencies and yet manage to maintain healthy interpersonal relations and be happy on top of managing their work load. I've also found that being put into a submissive position subdues my sociopathic tendencies because being in that position makes me happy, relieves a lot of tension from my mind, and helps me remain humble and respectful.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 5:30:38 PM

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Thank you GoddessManko :) and yes it is like being from another planet lol. I really had no social skills or empathy for others until I was 17-18 years old when i experienced a massive shift in my thought process that has made me the person I am today. Before then, i wished I could be anyone but me, but now i wouldn't want to be anyone in the world but myself.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 5:32:12 PM

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I've also found that being put into a submissive position subdues my sociopathic tendencies because being in that position makes me happy, relieves a lot of tension from my mind, and helps me remain humble and respectful.

That's an interesting perspective. Thanks for explaining. I can see how that might potentially be a therapeutic dynamic, especially as an alternative to potentially detrimental competition between slaves under one Domme. Or perhaps my tenderness is clouding my vision.

Welcome and best of luck on your search here.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 5:59:31 PM

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quote:

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Are you prepared to enter a healthy Master/slave relationship with a case of self-diagnosed sociopathy? I mean...I'm not sure how many people would be open to committing to a Dominant role with someone having sociopathic tendencies.

Since when is trans = sociopathic?

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 6:18:13 PM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: LiveSpark

quote:

ORIGINAL: ReinRaus

Are you prepared to enter a healthy Master/slave relationship with a case of self-diagnosed sociopathy? I mean...I'm not sure how many people would be open to committing to a Dominant role with someone having sociopathic tendencies.

Since when is trans = sociopathic?

Whoa. Where did I say trans = sociopath? I was responding to OP's statement, quoted below:

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ORIGINAL: sinnerdreams

I'm a bit of a sociopath but i came to terms with that a long time ago and made drastic efforts to become a better person and learn as much about myself as possible so that i can understand myself and others.

And if you scroll up a bit, OP replied to me expanding on the sociopath concern:

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ORIGINAL: sinnerdreams

I've also found that being put into a submissive position subdues my sociopathic tendencies because being in that position makes me happy, relieves a lot of tension from my mind, and helps me remain humble and respectful.

Can you please not put words in my mouth? Thanks.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 6:32:49 PM

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quote:

ORIGINAL: ReinRaus

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ORIGINAL: LiveSpark

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ORIGINAL: ReinRaus

Are you prepared to enter a healthy Master/slave relationship with a case of self-diagnosed sociopathy? I mean...I'm not sure how many people would be open to committing to a Dominant role with someone having sociopathic tendencies.

Since when is trans = sociopathic?

Whoa. Where did I say trans = sociopath? I was responding to OP's statement, quoted below:

quote:

ORIGINAL: sinnerdreams

I'm a bit of a sociopath but i came to terms with that a long time ago and made drastic efforts to become a better person and learn as much about myself as possible so that i can understand myself and others.

And if you scroll up a bit, OP replied to me expanding on the sociopath concern:

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ORIGINAL: sinnerdreams

I've also found that being put into a submissive position subdues my sociopathic tendencies because being in that position makes me happy, relieves a lot of tension from my mind, and helps me remain humble and respectful.

Can you please not put words in my mouth? Thanks.

Sorry my mistake. I missed that part of his post. It wasn't intentional.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 6:48:26 PM

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The reason i come out and admit that i've had sociopathic tendencies in the past is that people tend to focus only on their positive aspects when introducing themselves and leave out all the unappealing negatives thinking they can just deal with those later down the road. You sometimes get stuck in situations where you find yourself asking "Why didn't you tell me that before??" when it could've been prevented if they had just been honest with you from the start.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 6:51:09 PM

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You sometimes get stuck in situations where you find yourself asking "Why didn't you tell me that before??" when it could've been prevented if they had just been honest with you from the start.

Pretty much! I agree that it's best to be forward from the start and allow the other individual a fair chance at assessing whether they're a match or up for the challenges that may or may not creep up eventually. Besides, some folks like a challenge. :)

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/21/2015 6:51:56 PM

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Thank you GoddessManko :) and yes it is like being from another planet lol. I really had no social skills or empathy for others until I was 17-18 years old when i experienced a massive shift in my thought process that has made me the person I am today. Before then, i wished I could be anyone but me, but now i wouldn't want to be anyone in the world but myself.

Well it's good to know you're comfortable in your own skin. I'm sure insecurity has to be rough, very unusual for someone with high IQ so on the bright side you're rather unique.

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/22/2015 3:46:02 AM

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Welcome!

You sound a lot like the male version of me, except that I was not lazy, and was working to build my fortune at 18, and didn't focus on my sociopathy (or whatever anti-social disorders) until about 35. I've only recently learned how to "play human," and while I love it, I slip up and don't understand sometimes.

LOL!

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RE: Yes, um..hello - 1/22/2015 6:32:53 AM

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Welcome! I hope you enjoy your ride here.

It's nice to see another person spending years psychoanalyzing their own self. I knew I couldn't be the only one! I did the same, for years, when I was younger. I'd skip classes I was bored in to go to the library to research psychology and mental illnesses and disorders.

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The reason i come out and admit that i've had sociopathic tendencies in the past is that people tend to focus only on their positive aspects when introducing themselves and leave out all the unappealing negatives thinking they can just deal with those later down the road. You sometimes get stuck in situations where you find yourself asking "Why didn't you tell me that before??" when it could've been prevented if they had just been honest with you from the start.

This is fantastic and I wish more people were this forthcoming.

I will admit that your introduction could not have come at a better time for me. I've recently accepted that someone in my life may very well be a sociopath and this is all very positive to see.

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