GoddessManko
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It has happened. I have been completely and utterly FLOORED by the humble intelligence and shockingly in-depth understanding that a 22 year old Domme seems to have about the male submissive mind. I actually really want to meet this girl, my eyes literally widened as I read on, I was completely floored by her note and so it follows. The amazing part is she didn't realize what a "bingo!" she hit on so many points and at such a young age to boot. I feel more elated than I have felt in a while.
Dear Manko,
Thank you for your compliment. Your reply made me very glad of my decision to message you! Sometimes people that post interesting replies in thread comments are not necessarily interesting people / good conversationalists.
I am very immensely sadistic and cruel. I have found that to be the case across various fantasies - even with him - but now it is different only because I love him and treasure him as a human being. So the motherly protector kind of thrives when he comes into the picture. I've left everything else behind because I aim for a life partner more than a perfect masochistic slave and my "completion" as a sadistic "predator".
Indeed, the emotional connection binds things in a wonderful manner and gives things a very unique taste for me that has become addictive enough to choose a certain path. If a perfect, handsome slave came to me right now and wanted to lay his life at my feet in every single way my mind wanted... I would not be able to accept. For me it takes a very long time to form the connection from my behalf... that is why I became willing to compromise for the most of it in my partner's case (at least for now, in hopes it does pay off). He is oddly more detached from this sort of thing - perhaps because he is a man? and perhaps a natural born leader with his mindsets - submission for him has been more of a gift and a release than a "way of being", like domination is for me. Yet I assure you, despite this fact, when things click, they click in the most perfect way they could possibly click.
I truly appreciate your offer and find it very kind and generous, but guidance and mentoring is not what is lacking. The problems are actually very clear to me and have always been clear to both: we are long distance, we have not met even once in three years (although meeting this year is a very high possibility), and all the D/s we've done is online. We are middle class college students, stressed by the requirements and responsibilities that growing up is demanding of us and not satisfied with our current situation or our families (due to being ambitious, intelligent etc. as you also noticed). 24/7 D/s in any form is therefore a pure absurdity at the moment, even though I conceived it possible in some ways, even partially - I believe he just became scared and misunderstood me, but this is of course of no relevance at the moment since the issue has been dealt with. In real life however, this would work out perfectly, we both see this and understand it, and living together would be simply heaven and liberation for the both of us. I chose to dismiss this aspect when posting the thread because when we posted it, my conviction was that this was a mindset/problem that perhaps would not be relinquished by the distance being dismissed. So I was curious about the input from people, without their minds being cluttered by the long distance aspect. People tend to be judgmental and have a difficult time comprehending and treating things objectively/with an open mind. Long distance, just like BDSM, is still taboo for some in this day and age.
I also think this was an issue of miscommunication while we both wanted the same things - 24/7 is not as demanding as he imagines it, and in truth as far as full-time dedicated slavery goes, I do prefer it to be in "periods" that we both have time in our schedules for. Communication has to be a tricky thing. We often find ourselves disagreeing about things we are actually agreeing about simply from how things are phrased. :) Maybe a mild language barrier residue.
Ultimately, the reality of things is that we have not tried very much of the things we fantasied about, although every task and cam and long discussions have always gone perfectly with immense appeal - so when we meet, we have a lot of things to do. I'd say that's pretty much it.
I apologize for this long PM, but these things had to be written in this fashion.
Where do you get the motivation to work out so with so much dedication?
What has brought you into D/s and what have you discovered about yourself so far - where do you stand?
I hope your day has been going well.
All the best,
Jade
I honestly don't even think my reply did this letter justice.
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