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ORIGINAL: MS4S
Apologizing for threads or Many there of of same topics problems etc....
But I know I must bring This up to clarify a few things(Taboo subject for Mods)
If this thread Need be removed okay
I lusted over females from the time I was in elementary school through late High School and still Do
A white girl whom I LUSTED because of Her Ass and of one other thing(Yeah My Eyes were glued)
Turns around one day and I saw her face and viola It was instant Crush.....It was My First Crush
I had reasons why to take Her on or not to which would include BDSM Feelings of an early age
Thinking Not with My Dick or With My Mind on anything but the Future I decide to just stare at her as time past by and not
pursue her
One day she Asks Me out or attempts this and I FREAK OUT AND PANIC then using thoughts or Dreams of Future I use this as
the basis to not persue a relationship with Her and because she was from the Vanilla Side
You can say that since then 50 60 70% of all My Sexual encounters or relationships or relationships started but ending quick were with
Married Engaged to be Married or Already taken females whether Happily involved or not siome wonderful and some not so
Those few I dated before the Millenium or after in Real Life that were single and either cute or sexy or attractive average looks not of ugly
were the remaining percent
Problems which arise starting in year 2000 is what is PISSING Me the F off
But if I had to go through a PTSD that nearly cost Me My life and My Soul shall I say I saw the Light
I give Myself onto the Lord and decide to stay Celibate till God Comes a knocking or does finding solutions to problems become'
The necessity.
That said if Financial Woes related to if at first Financial sabotage by the Religious Right or Religion as a whole is stopping Me from
Getting a Bigger Place engaging in polygamy rather than Monogamy or finding solutions to problems I encounter since 2000
Shall I concentrate on Making More Money first or paying up debts before I precede if that means putting bdsm dating
casual play casual sex etc,,,on hold as I had done off and on since My PTSD
welcome to the forums!
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would of preferred to be known as the singer formerly known as prince, but that tagline was grabbed already
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Apologies and clarifting a few things - 
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