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rikvanlooy -> Wanting to go a bit further than other people (2/22/2016 5:05:43 AM)
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Hello, fellow bdsm lovers. Some 15 years I was introduced to this life style, but from the start it was clear that I was always willing to go a bit further than the others. I warned them upfront, but still ....
I was somewhat bdsm-inactive the last couple of years, but the urge to live this special life came back with a vengeance.
It's not always easy to find the correct bdsm partner(s). Nonetheless it should, according to me, to be possible to find a couple of a master of mistress who wants to go the extra mile.
But I am not mad, I am not living a fantasy. Some elements are dangerous or simply stupid.
The last weeks I am obsessed about being put in a small dark box (ears plugged and mouth gagged, not being to see something, ass plugged) for an extended period. Being afraid and anxious, loneliness, pain, cramps, the need to pee, ... You completely depend on the other to set you free. One also needs training to be able to not starting panicking or ....
Being chained, whipped, caned, .... All of this is something that I am craving.
I already know that this is something rare, but still ....
Is it bizar that I so maso ? Sholuld I visit a doctor ?
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